Hello guys! It's me again. A fee days ago I logged in to my account to see that one of my (take note guys, Very very very) favorite author has published another story. 

And being a trash for her stories I immediately clicked the subscribe button even before I can read the foreword. 

But then, reading her foreword, I just felt I dont know, a little disappointed? I guess. 

Now, dont get me wrong, it's nothing about the content or concept of her new story, it's what she said in her foreword that got me slumping my shoulders. 

She just proposed that if she hasn't gotten a specific number of votes in a span of few days, then she'll be turning the whole fic down. 

And then I was like, what?

I mean, It's disheartening to see authors forcing out a vote from readers when in fact you haven't even proven the worth of the story you published. I mean, of course I know the fulfilment it gives receiving upvotes and comments from my readers but you shouldn't write solely because of the benefit of getting votes. 

I mean, are you supposed to write for fame? or are you supposed to wrote for leisure? Because I hell sure know why I write. 

It's because of the fact that I write to relieve mental stress and now I just get going because I simply love to. It doesn't matter anymore whether people will or will not read it, I'll continue writing until I get tried of it, not because I dont receive lots of votes already. 

AFF is the platform I used to escape from the world's toxicity every once in a while and seeing how other authors seem to be becoming toxic in here too makes me real sad. 

Most of my readers were silent readers but I was grateful still for them, it was enough for me to know that somebody were reading my stories. Now, if they shared their thoughts or comments about it, then I'll be very much grateful for that. Because that's how it's supposed to be, comments and praises from other people should be heart fluttering, not supposed to grow your head. 

You guys get me? 

Once again sorry for the rant, I'm just really down after reading that statement, I mean she's one of my favorite authors and seeing how she said that made me feel a whole lot disheartened. 

I hope she changes that kind of mindset. 

We're all fighting battles others don't know about, so I hope she can find another way of coping up with stress. :'(