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Faint lights from cars passing reflected off the dark waters as you wondered how deep the river is below this bridge. Your hands felt numb on the cool steel bridge on this early autumn night. Would it be cold… the water? you wondered. You briefly smiled. It would be nice… if it were cold. Perhaps you’d feel something by then.

 

Was this the answer? Was this the only way you’d ever feel something again? You weren’t sure. But you’ve been wanting this agony to end.

 

You felt your eyes sting as tears formed. Would they even notice? Would they notice I’m gone? Would they even care? At least I’d be taking off some weight on their shoulders.

 

You grip the steel railings tight as you bow your head, letting the tears fall down your cheeks. You closed your eyes and breathed deeply. Your mind was set. It was time to let all of this go.

 

You put one foot up on the lower rails, and then another. One more deep breath. You climbed one leg over. Another deep breath. You climbed your other leg over and sat on top of the rails. One last deep breath. You closed your eyes, raising your head up to the sky.

 

“I’m sorry. Thank you for everything.”

 

You let your hands off the rails.

 

Your ear rang as your mind tried to process the throbbing pain from your back and head. Did you hit something hard? A rock? At least this pain is different, you thought.

 

But where was the splash? Where is the water? How can I breathe?

 

You slowly opened your eyes. A pair of red angry ones stared back at yours.

 

“What were you thinking?!” he gritted through his teeth.

 

Your eyes looked around. Cars were still passing by. You were still on the bridge. A hysteric chuckle erupted from your lips at the same time the tears started to fall again. Ahh… why can’t this end already?

 

“You shouldn't have done that,” you whispered, staring up at the night sky.

 

The man suddenly put his hands on either side of your face and forced you to look at him. “No! You shouldn’t have done that!” The man bit his lip and quivered as he controlled his emotions, but his eyes… his eyes betrayed him.

 

A drop of tear fell on your cheek. It was hot. Finally. I feel something else.

 

With your blurry eyes, you looked at him. It was only then when you realized he was wearing the same school uniform as you are. Your eyes went back to his face. He had a mole below his eye… a familiar mole… “Kyuhyun...sunbae?” you whispered.