Hello !! It's been quite a while, indeed. I'm not even sure anyone is online anymore, or if anyone will even see this blog post. Still, I thought I might as well make a little notice just so I wouldn't feel bad for vanishing in case anyone would wonder where I went lol.

But yeah, it's like the title suggests. I'm leaving AFF. More specifically, I'm removing my work from the site as well as deleting my account. I generally feel like my fics have run their course and seeing how it's been a long while since I actively wrote and published fanfiction, most of my stuff has just been lying around here, exposed, which makes me a teensy bit uncomfortable. Especially regarding my older work. 

I'm 21 now (wow a whole hag I know) and honestly, writing fanfiction just doesn't bring me the thrill it used to compared to when I was 15 or 16. I still love reading and writing in general, but when it comes to my niche, there's something about writing about real people that just doesn't sit right with me anymore. Of course, this is just my opinion personally.

There was a time in my life when I thought I'd never "grow out of" k-pop, and that I'd keep writing these fics with the same burning passion. But lo and behold, and after just a few years, I was sadly mistaken. I'm just not in touch with k-pop anymore, and it as well doesn't bring me the joy it used to. I don't know if it's because of all the unfortunate things that have occurred in the Hallyu scene in the past 5 years or so, or if it's because many of the groups I stan have gone on to the military or are no longer active as a group, but I just don't vibe with it at all like I used to. That being said, I'll always love groups like exo, shinee, suju and 2PM and they'll always have a special place in my heart.

I feel like I've rambled on quite a bit but it's always bittersweet leaving a place you once loved and considered home. Is that cheesy to say? Can't help it since that's just how I feel. I felt the same way after closing my fan account on instagram after running it for almost 3 years. 

But nothing lasts forever, I guess.

So with that out of the way, I'd just like to take a few more lines and thank each and every individual who has voted, commented, subbed or even just silently read my work. You guys were the reason I kept writing the entire time. I've made so many friends on AFF, learned some new things, and have had so much fun. I can't explain the butterflies in my stomach every time I'd log in to new messages or comments or subs. You guys made me the happiest during some pretty dark times. I thank you from the bottom of my heart, even if there aren't that many of you and even if those who supported me have long moved on from AFF.

I have never forgotten all the kind words and the motivation you guys gave me. And I wish each and every one of you the absolute best in your future endavours.

I'm also happy to let you all know that I'll be a full-fledged English teacher next year when I graduate university, and part of what pushed me to pursue education was my actually my writing and all the support I got from it! So don't let trivial things like lack of subs or views get you down, guys. If you love what you do, you'll be great at it no matter what, and you'll go places (even if it's not exactly where you thought you'd end up like me.) Just believe in yourself!

Times may be hard especially now, but I have hope things will get better.

So, I guess that's it then! I've gone on for long enough. I'm sorry this was so long-winded, but that's just a habit of mine (I am a writer, after all lol)

Goodbye AFF! Stay safe and take care of yourselves <3