Life of a female; it’s always extra ordinary. A female takes birth thrice in a life time. Once from her mother’s womb, she takes birth as a daughter. Then again when her father gives her hand in husband’s hand, a wife is born. Finally the most precious phase of a woman’s life come when she gives birth to a little one and her new born gives birth to a mother in her. When a child is born the pain a mother goes through is even more painful than death itself, but just a wish to look at those serene little eyes, keeps her alive. But not everyone is lucky, are they? Some are not able to give birth or worse, some are not able to look at the one they gave birth. Just like her…..

She, she was not different from any other pregnant woman. Just like other pregnant women her eyes were longing to see her baby, she was making woolen clothes for her child too. Just because she was scared that her child will not like it, she stopped watching her favorite action and horror movies. She was watching those ultra sound clips again and again to feel her baby’s heart beat. She had made plans for deigns on its room’s wall, she had brought a beautiful cot for it. All she was unaware that she won’t be able to experience this beautiful world with it, the world she was decorating for it.

Pain was forcing her to close her eyes but she was not allowed to. Regardless of all the hurt she was pushing herself hard. The baby was not in normal position anymore. The baby’s was umbilical cord was choking its neck. Its head was trapped. Finally the pain stopped. With the pain her breath hitched too. She could not resist her eyes from shutting down. She knew she was unable to bear the pain. Just then she heard one voice saying “We can only save one.” That was enough to ruin her universe. She slowly tried to put her hand on her belly and whispered a good bye under breath. She pulled out her oxygen mask, just then a nurse yelled, “What are you doing?” “Sa..a..v..e..e   m..my  c..h..hi..ll..d” were the last word she could say before falling into infinite abyss.

She was no more feeling pain, no sound and her eyes were not even, heavy anymore. She slowly opened her eyes to find herself inside a flower garden with divine scented flowers. The surrounding was serene, perhaps she was in heaven. But why her heart was so heavy? Why there is no more happiness? Because her baby was left alone there, in a cruel world, she could teach him nothing just then she heard a soft voice asking her “You want to say him many things right?” Eyes became wet as she heard that. “I am dream foe whatever you want to say him just write down here, I will make your son dream that.” The man with a light bluish aura said when giving her a pale yellow paper and a pen.

She had a lot to say, she did not knew where to start…. She wrote…..

Dear son,

Mama is sorry baby, for leaving you there alone, but you know why mama did that, because mama knows, her son is very brave, she does not need anyone to rely in, is not is my baby strong? You know baby, mama loves you a lot, don’t hate mama, please. It might be cold outside, when your dad brings you outside ask him to make you wear the sweater mama made for you. I know baby, you are angry, but don’t ever think you are alone, I will be with you in your small limbs, in your sweet voice, in your lovely eyes and inside your heart. Mama will ask God to make her your guardian angel, then she will protect you baby. You know baccha, world is a beautiful place, see your mom in the cherry tree she planted before dying. When you feel sad, go hug her. Play with the pink flowers. Mama had already plant other tree around, she won’t feel lonely, don’t worry about her. Just take care of your health. If papa is busy with things, understand him, don’t get mad at him. He loves you a lot beta but he has a lot works. Play with Puchhu, that kitten will always accompany you, I taught her that. You know beta, everything is so beautiful here in this immortal relam. But mama is not happy baccha, she misses you. Mama will write to you once in a while, lets meet in your dreams baccha. Mama badly wants to hug you.” With this line she broke into tears and gave that letter to the dream foe.