Today, i am working as a paramedic. I got a house call to my dads close friend. And on the way to the hospital he went itno cardiab arrest from covid related complications  and we couldnt save him. And now im expected to go back t work in 30 min. 
 

i really cant right now. I dont want to post this anywhere else bc people would know who it was. He was told to go home and self quarantine a week ago. His kids should be the first ones to tell everyone. 
 

i have a aunt currently intubated and for those who under, her current psi is 45 and shes never going to be the same.  
 

my grandma is avoiding me bc she doesnt want to get covid, so i've been living alone in one of my family rentals. She told me she wants to see me bit shes more scared of duing alone.

trying to limit my time w my boyfriend and its so hard. I'm startung to feel so linely while feeling suffocated