Plainly, I just don't understand what I'm doing with my life. I know what I want to be doing with my life, but I'm too afraid to do it, I'm afraid that there are a million things that could go wrong. But... I only have one life and I want to live it the way I want, not the way my parents want me to or not the way others expect me to. I know this might sound like high school drama, but it feels nothing as simple as that. People ask me what I want to be, I have to tell them that I don't know but I do know what I want to be, the friends I do tell give me support but that just doesn't feel enough. I don't understand what I'm doing, I feel like I'm just living to live, I feel dead. I feel like I'll eventually work up the courage, but that's what I've been telling myself for a long time. The only thing that still keeps me pushing forward is music, dance, singing, and friends and loved ones. I just... I don't know what I'm doing right now, I have no idea where I want to be in the future. Should risk everything to do what I love or should I just play it safe? Though this might sound depressing, I'm still a pretty happy person as usaul but this still is really important to me. Thx for reading till the end of the blog post. Love you! Always remeber to love yourself no matter what, hwaiting!