I want to just... stop

All I asked was for some peace, for some happiness. I know I laugh but the moment it ends I feel like crying. I don't know. I am scared of everything I am sad because of everything. I feel like ending everything. I feel like just...I don't know. I just want everything to stop. I want to just run away and hide in a place where no one knows me, no one would judge me, no one will bother me, no one will care about what I do, what I wear, what I eat. Where I won't be scared that people are looking at me. Where I am not scared of travelling in public transport, without feeling self concious. Where I won't judge myself, where I can respect myself. Somewhere I don't have to please someone. Somewhere I don't have to think about others opinion and think about what I like, even if what I like is bad, or doesn't looks good, or is cheap, or is deformed, but something I and only I like. I really want to, but I cannot. I want to rest I want to stop. At some point even my life.

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knightrider777
#1
Hello.... YOU know the somewhere you mentioned above... is nowhere but inside you... I don't want to lecture you because I know at the point you are right now. ..you know all the things and you don't want to be consoled... I do understand that all you need is to be listened ... I know you are are giving up this easily sis.... i know you fought well.... Just few time more...prove this universe that. .. you deserve all the respect. .. i know it's taking long... but you have came this far... wait a little longer dear... i promise you will be healed. I know you will find yourself at ease. I believe that you are a fighter and surviver. .. wait a little longer. .. time will come you will be happy.
MyThoughts
#2
I’m in the state of depression and anxiety too right now. But I’m trying my best to fight this. Lets not give up! We can do this! Find someone you trust and let it all out! Your fear and everything you feel inside please let it out! Lets fight for this! I understand your struggle but lets live to the fullest! Never give up! I’m struggling too right now and I’m trying hard right now. Lets not give up!
tumbleweed
#3
Hello,

We have never talked but I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. There are many people who are self-conscious about themselves, and while it doesn't sound like a good thing, it's totally fine to have flaws. Self-love is important and it's very hard, especially in a society where people will judge you for every tiny thing. But there are many who think you are beautiful and it's a fact that you have self-worth. You might think you are a burden to the world, but I really mean it when I say you have a purpose! Even if you don't know what you want to do with your life, there is always a process of walking towards a path. And the process always starts with taking small steps, bit by bit, until you find out what you truly enjoy and like. You don't have to please anyone but yourself. Find things you like, and do them so that you don't regret them.

There are many people who love you, trust me. I hope you continue to stay strong and if you ever need to talk to anyone, I will be here and open to whatever you want to say. I really hope you make the wise choice in not ending your life because I know for sure that there will be someone out there who will miss you. Live your life and live it to the fullest! <3
Jkloey
#4
Set a planner divert your mind with other activities it really helps and self love is very important love yourself
LayDZhang
#5
At some part, I can relate to you but you should know that there at people that cares for you. You can't please anyone. There are many judgemental people around here but not all. If you look down more to yourself because of a reason then you will just sink yourself more and it's like letting those judgments win you over.
Instead, do some activity that will develop your self confident and help you overcome the problem. You might think you can't do it but I'm sure you do.
5HINee_4ever
#6
Hy dear, don't think like that. There is a person who loves u.
loveexoxbts #7
Please don't say it like that!! Everything is gonna be alright take it easy...