Thoughts

Hey everyone,

it has been a few days since our precious Jinri took her own life, i am still processing things. but i feel like i need to express what i think.

i did go through several phases of emotions:

- anger, yes i am angry. I am angry with the backward society that treats these young girls like property instead of individuals.
-rage. These girls sacrifice their teen years to train endlessly with the hope of debuting. They work their asses off, day in and day out to improve and get to where they are now. They do that because they have a dream, they dont do that for some loser sitting behind a computer screen purely spreading hate. It is so easy to type hate comments, we can all do that, but we all have a functioning moral compass that tells us right from wrong. Hiding behind a computer screen and bashing a young girl is cowardly. Haters are COWARDS. Get off your and do something with your life instead of cyber bullying someone who is killing themselves for their dream.
- disappointment. I am disappointed in SM, Sulli asked for help, more than once. She said she was tired more than once. Nobody listened. For a company with idols as managers, they should know better.

- devastation. I am devastated because this loss affects so many lives. Her fans, her seniors, her fellow fx members, her friends, her family. Basically anyone who talked to her, worked with her.
- sorrow. I feel like she was robbed of so many things. She was robbed of her childhood being a child actress. She was robbed of normal teen years, by being a trainee and lter on debuting. She was robbed of her young adult life because she was an active idol. She was robbed of a future with family, kids (her dream was to become a mother before she dies), she was robbed of growing old, watching her kids grow. She was robbed of her happiness and her future.

- understanding. I understand why it happened. I know she is in a better place. Her beautiful smile plastered on her face, her loud laugh filling the place. I know she has found her peace. I know she is doing what she loves without the judgement.

do i think idols should live alone, maybe they shouldnt. They want their freedom, but at the same time they live an extreme life and things get hard. So at the end of the day when they go home, they are alone, no one to talk to, no distractions. They might go into that dark side.

I still have a lot of things boiling inside me. I may post another blog about this when i sort some things out.

Depression is a monster, but it can be slayed. We need to speak out. If you or anyone you know is getting bullied, speak up. Ask for help

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brithistorian #1 Oct 17, 2019 19:01:26

Thanks for writing this. I just wish the people who have the power to do something about things would be able to this.

MoonlitPrincess #2 Oct 17, 2019 11:20:18

Thank you for writing another piece, and sharing your thoughts. You expressed so well a lot of what I was feeling too, and still am feeling, because I went through all those same things, anger, devastation, sadness, absolutely rage, sorrow, disappointment all of those things. the fact that she did ask her company to help and it was ignored broke my heart, like these young people are all treated like dolls and items to give all of themselves over to your companies to make you money, and all you can do is ignore their pain, that broke me, and the fact that she also just felt so alone, and dealt with so much so alone but continued trying her best for so long it was simply heartbreaking in so many ways.

and these ppl who just so easily spread hatred, like you are getting away with murder at least until the time comes when laws are eventually passed to stop this, but yet they still do it because it's all they can do instead of just getting out and finding a life outside of their computers if they can't do anything else, thank you for writing again such another well written piece. I hope she is at peace now

Codename001 #3 Oct 16, 2019 22:46:48

I just wish SM and other agencies are little passionate about their artists. They are the ones who are making them rich. If it is weren't for them they won't exist. They should let them relax. Give them freedom before they all take their lives.

And those haters, don't they have anything else to do besides bullying people and their actions? Those bullies should experience this kind of thing too. They should feel how painful it is to be judged by other people who don't even know them.

This world is full of s. Those bullies are just like a murderer. They are serial killers. Their harsh words kill people. And I can't believe after what their action did to others after someone take their lives because of them they still have the guts to walk around with the ing smile on their faces as if they did nothing wrong!

I can't believe people like them exist! Why they have to hater people who are above them!? Are they envious of their success or are they just some half bull half excuse for a human?!!!

They are the worst kind of person.