August 7, 2019

My, oh my, has it been a very long time since I've even been on this site and addressed you all.

New readers, dedicated fans, beloved friends and mutuals alike, some of you may have noticed my prolonged absence this past year. Well to start off, I am a college student, currently double-majoring and planning to add a minor in the near future, and off to other real-world and "adult" adventures/lessons. This past year was about me finding a new path in my life and forging without much knowledge into what I was getting myself into, who I was going to meet, and what I was going to face and endure. I still very much have a passion for writing, however, I find that I have a tendency to over-extend myself and placing unrealistic expectations onto myself. It affected not only my writing but my confidence in it as well. I'm sure many fellow writers can relate to the feeling of being seemingly "burnt out" due to the prolonged expectation of churning out strings of words into sentences that will (hopefully) be coherent enough for you all to understand and enjoy as a "story." With that being said, any uncompleted stories on my profile, at the time of writing this post, will be indefinitely on hold until further notice/update. I hate to be the deliverer of bad news, trust me, but I'm sure you all value honesty much more than a smokescreen of white lies about me and my whereabouts.

I have decided to also keep much more of my personal life private than before, simply to protect my identity and anonymity. I will still have my social media accounts open for you all to access and keep to date with me, however life-updates will be scant and less frequent. Life has become much more demanding of my time, and I must make a sacrifice towards the future I feel is best for me, while keeping those who care about me and worry about me in the loop. I'm not going anywhere anytime soon, and will ensure to keep this account and its stories posted for as long as possible and to my own discretion.

Another contributing factor that I try not to credit with my loss of "motivation," if one were to look at it from the surface, is my dwindling interest in K-Pop. I'm not quite sure how much people know of this, but I have pretty much witnessed the rise and supposed downfall of second-generation K-pop groups, and the rise of third-generation groups as well. So if you aren't quite familiar with that timeline, K-Pop has been an avid interest of mine since 2009/2010. Some people may call this growing up, but to me, I find that, though I feel that I may never grow up, some things just aren't worth stressing or sharing my emotion with. I barely know of groups that have debuted beyond early 2016, and only really keep up with groups that I have formed an attachment with before early 2016. I still am very much of an avid K-Pop listener, but I find myself listening to older, "throwback" songs than I am listening to that of a new, rookie group. Regardless, I'd like to end with the notion that K-Pop has brought me to various different roads and capabilities in my life, learning experiences, and fun memories as well. I just find it much more difficult to keep up with new music and new groups - yet I am very sure that they embody the capabilities and talent to entice many and produce the influence needed to curate the next generation of fanatics. 

It has been a pleasure to be able to share the craziest of ideas that brew within the realms and depths of my imagination, and to be met with such supportive and positive comments (criticism is always welcome, as well.) Writing has always been a gateway to channel personal experiences, fantasies, expectations, dreams, times of turmoil and struggle, into something that was actually enjoyable for the audience that I have garnered these past 3 years. Each and every one of your views, upvotes, comments, messages, and other means of interaction will always hold a dear and beloved place within my heart, soul, and treasured experiences. 

So... TLDR; if you just want the main ideas of this post:

1) I'm a college student - YIKES. Social life? None. Time? None. Sleep? None. Time to write something up to my unrealistic standards? None, unfortunately )-: 
2) I'm burnt out - it happens, but I'm not sure if I am able to continue updating my stories. 
3) With that being said, I'm not going to go anywhere any time soon, I'm here to stay. The only catch is that the possibilities of me updating again are slim to none. 
4) Privacy! I value it and will be enforcing it. Social media accounts are still up and are/will be active soon, however posts on those accounts will be less frequent. 
5) I'm a very old K-Pop stan, and I can't keep young, hip, and fresh with all these new groups coming out. Which in turn has made me less in the loop and interested in anything being released/promoted. (Still reading and keeping up with news enough to know that Seungri's absolute trash though, lmfao) 
6) Every single one of you? Yeah, you mean a lot to me. And I really do mean it when I say that I genuinely love and adore you all. 

Welp, this concludes my longest blog post! Thank you for taking the time to read these sappy blurbs, even if it was just the TLDR section, your attention and care has always been a source of reassurance and appreciation. Until the next time! 

With love, 
Young Mi x 

PS. UN Village absolutely ruined me. Baekhyun still has a spot in whatever is left in my heart that he continues to destroy.