I'm sick | A Change™ (does anyone even read these?)

So you probably missed me on Twitter (or not). After I let that stupid bird app ruin my life for over a year, I deleted it... It just wasn't healthy for me. So, the coming weeks I'll work on my mental health just when I got out of therapy a few months ago, (sarcastic) yay!!! I finally realised the bird app was making me sick (mentally) and you can say that bladibla it's just Stan Twitter bladibla, but... ack, I don't wanna bother you all with my personal story too much, so feel free to message me if you wanna say something,,,

One of the reasons I do want to share is that Stan Twitter nearly ruined ChanBaek for me. Some people were taking shipping SO seriously that I felt like I couldn't be myself. I wanted to move to another account to, you know, freely ship exo with exo instead of solely ChanBaek, but then I thought: IT. This is MY account and I do with it what I want. So, just a heads up, I might bring out BaekhyunxEXO fanfictions because I ship that man with every exo member and he deserves all the love in the world!!! Does this make me a fake ChanBaekist? No. ChanBaek is STILL my OTP and even if it weren't, who cares? It's just shipping... >-<; 

I'll be going back to school in September ((genuine) YAYY!!!!) and I'm turning 20 in September too so I figured it's time to grow up. Does this mean I'll stop stanning EXO? No!!! It just means that while, yes, kpop is fun and all, in the end it's just a music genre and I shouldn't let it lead my life. Same goes for fanfictions. I wasn't writing for myself anymore, I wasn't writing because I love writing anymore--I was writing because I felt like I had to. To satisfy others. And this SHOULD NEVER BE THE CASE. So, I am taking a break. I do not know for how long. 

In conclusion: I'll write way less fanfictions AND not only ChanBaek. Does this mean no more ChanBaek? OF COURSE NOT!!! This only means you'll maybe also see SeBaek, KaiBaek, SuBaek, XiuBaek, BaekChen, BaekXing, BaekSoo and maybe even LuBaek, KrisBaek and TaoBaek and of course, ChanBaek. 

In case I don't come back from my hiatus, I want to thank you all for being with me the past five years. It means a lot to me how loved my fanfictions are!!! Even it it's just . This site gave me a safe place to roam in my creativity and get love from it in return. And please don't miss me too much, since my biggest dream is to bring out a book, so who knows?

In case I DO come back, please don't be disappointed if the story isn't solely ChanBaek. I have other interests too (like the other ships!) and please don't tell me I'm a 'fake ChanBaekist' for not only shipping ChanBaek. In my eyes a ChanBaekist is someone who ships ChanBaek. Do I ship ChanBaek? Hell yes! Do you ship ChanBaek? Yes? Good! No? Also Good!!!

With that off my chest, I hope you're all well and doing what you love! ♥ 

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hundredsoodexxo
#1
Hey Anna! So that's the reason why I don't see you in the bird app anymore. Hope you're doing consistently fine. :) Rest assured I will still support you and your fics--may it be ChanBaek or with any other ship. I'm actually excited to read your works again, I've read it all already and I'm running out of good stories haha! Please be well. Take all the time you need to really cure yourself first. We'll be waiting. Aja! ❤
BlackCatBigSister
#2
Take care of yourself, mental health is important.
Mirae00 #3
Anna!! Do you see all this love and support?! For every crazy over the top chanbaek shipper that made you feel so trapped there are ten that just love exo content and are ready to support you in whatever and whoever you write~ I hope the time away from twitter is doing you good and we all cant wait for you to come back (if you do/want to)
thexwanders
#4
Annaaaaaaaaahskdhsjs LUBAEK LUBAEK LUBAEEEEEKKKKKKK DHJSSHJSS MY IS QUIVERING AT THE THOUGHT OF READING QUALITY LUBAEK FIC HUHUHUHU
Babycake_bbh
#5
Anna, you are one of my inspiration in writing fic. I adore your creative ideas, i like the way you write, because you makes everything sound so alive,, i hope i will have that skill one day.


When i read this post, i remmber my twttr. I have twitter acc first even before i have started writing in aff. Tbh, twitter ain't like these years back, i don't know what goes wrong but i also thinking of shutting my twitter too these past few months. Twtter just becoming so toxic, i am disgusted reading all the nonsense/baseless/ fight there,,, I have made my resolution that the moment Baekhyun went to military, that's it, I'm done with twitter. Even when Baekhyun just had his solo, when all he did is either vlogging for us or stay in gym, people still come to him, I'm so sick of it. Not only that, the rumor that Chanbaek is breaking up bla bla bla goshhh, aren't they all tired? Because, i am.


You don't have to read my rant about twitter, Anna
>,<. Just stay happy and stay healthy. I always love to read your fics. Thank you for writing such a good fics for all of us <3

Also, if you want to write BaekhyunxEXO fic, by all means, pls pls pls do so!!!
exobaekchan
#6
I'm not a person whi leaves long messages but i'll include you in my prayers! I hope you get well soon. I'll miss you and your masterpiece writings! Take care always!! Will wait for your return!! God bless!! All the love~ fighting!!
bluejoy #7
Wow you did a good thing when you deleted twitter. I have noticed twitter is really something that will slowly poison your mind if you spend there too much time. To be honest, I was planning to do the same, because it affects so much of my fangirling for EXO, and honestly, I don't want any other people affect to it. Because I think it's something personal.

And what comes to Chanbaek, I totally understand what you mean when you said twitter nearly ruined them for you. I hate how some of those shippers are sometimes so out of their minds. Like they take it so far they are turning against the other shippers, it seriously isn't healthy. I can't stand when the shippers, who belong in the same fandom and even have the same OTP, can turn against each other over something so petty.

You do just that what you feel you want to do! If you want to write other ships, go ahead. The main importance is always what YOU want to do, not what others want you to do. It's important for a healthy mind too. I love your stories, you are one of my favorite authors, and I will always wait for your fics. I hope all the best for you ❤

PS. sorry if this question is annoying, but are you gonna write those Chanbaek prompts you talked about? Like the twins royal guards, angel/demon, etc.? :) they sounded so delicious.
OneLuckyMonster12
#8
Im sorry for everything that have been happening to you. Idk what happened but just know that I'll always support you no matter what. If you want someone to talk to, just know that you can always find me (you can trust me and i hope you do). I'm all ears, i'll listen and help you in any way possible if you want to.
Btw, i just wanted to say you did the right thing. You do not have to follow others' opinion towards what you write. And everyone should respect what you want to write or do. Take a rest for as long as you want and if you you feel better i hope to see you write again on aff. I'm proud of you and all your stories that you've wrote. Fighting eonnie! ^3^
xXxDeViLiNwHiTexXx
#9
This obsess with Chanbaek is kind of alarming I would say. I have heard people are texting chanyeol and Baekhyun in their ig to have more interactions with each. I was so freaked out! But I respect your decision and I'm also supporting your decision to write stories about other ships. It's your account, your stories and your ideas. Be yourself. And I really hope
You'll not go into a permanent hiatus. Take a break and come back with full force. Take love.
Fighting ●︿●
Yeolsvixen
#10
Can I just say how proud I am of you?? Anna babe you're doing so well! I'm happy that you're putting your mental health first! I'm happy you're finally writing BAEKHYUN x exo fics like you always wanted! Im happy you said the things I've been meaning to say for a while too! I'm so so happy for you and just know that I'll always support you! Always! So do what makes you happy! All the love to you❤️❤️❤️
bumkey
#11
I'm sorry for you, I hope you'll get better now. Take care of yourself ?

Are you going to delete your stories? Because I love reading them .....
jjongkeytrash
#12
I'm sorry you went through all of that. Social media really is the plague of our generation. It's good that you took away from your life. Also PSA: SHIPS ARE SHIPS AND ARE SHIPS. People need to realize that ships are seriously just ships. They're not meant to be taken so seriously in the way some people do. It's dangerous AND toxic; especially if you like another ship.
Good luck with school! I hope you do well. And take a hiatus for as long as you need. That time should be for you and you only. Same as your writing. I'm sorry that you weren't able to write for yourself. Hopefully, you can, from now on, write for yourself :D
I wish you the best of luck in life!!

Sincerely,
A loyal reader

P.S Yes I do read these :)
Multifandom1908 #13
I ship anyone with anyone. So it doesn’t bother me. I only read but I do love your stories too!!! I hope you have a great break and can’t wait to see you back xoxo