I'm sick | A Change™ (does anyone even read these?)
So you probably missed me on Twitter (or not). After I let that stupid bird app ruin my life for over a year, I deleted it... It just wasn't healthy for me. So, the coming weeks I'll work on my mental health just when I got out of therapy a few months ago, (sarcastic) yay!!! I finally realised the bird app was making me sick (mentally) and you can say that bladibla it's just Stan Twitter bladibla, but... ack, I don't wanna bother you all with my personal story too much, so feel free to message me if you wanna say something,,,
One of the reasons I do want to share is that Stan Twitter nearly ruined ChanBaek for me. Some people were taking shipping SO seriously that I felt like I couldn't be myself. I wanted to move to another account to, you know, freely ship exo with exo instead of solely ChanBaek, but then I thought: IT. This is MY account and I do with it what I want. So, just a heads up, I might bring out BaekhyunxEXO fanfictions because I ship that man with every exo member and he deserves all the love in the world!!! Does this make me a fake ChanBaekist? No. ChanBaek is STILL my OTP and even if it weren't, who cares? It's just shipping... >-<;
I'll be going back to school in September ((genuine) YAYY!!!!) and I'm turning 20 in September too so I figured it's time to grow up. Does this mean I'll stop stanning EXO? No!!! It just means that while, yes, kpop is fun and all, in the end it's just a music genre and I shouldn't let it lead my life. Same goes for fanfictions. I wasn't writing for myself anymore, I wasn't writing because I love writing anymore--I was writing because I felt like I had to. To satisfy others. And this SHOULD NEVER BE THE CASE. So, I am taking a break. I do not know for how long.
In conclusion: I'll write way less fanfictions AND not only ChanBaek. Does this mean no more ChanBaek? OF COURSE NOT!!! This only means you'll maybe also see SeBaek, KaiBaek, SuBaek, XiuBaek, BaekChen, BaekXing, BaekSoo and maybe even LuBaek, KrisBaek and TaoBaek and of course, ChanBaek.
In case I don't come back from my hiatus, I want to thank you all for being with me the past five years. It means a lot to me how loved my fanfictions are!!! Even it it's just . This site gave me a safe place to roam in my creativity and get love from it in return. And please don't miss me too much, since my biggest dream is to bring out a book, so who knows?
In case I DO come back, please don't be disappointed if the story isn't solely ChanBaek. I have other interests too (like the other ships!) and please don't tell me I'm a 'fake ChanBaekist' for not only shipping ChanBaek. In my eyes a ChanBaekist is someone who ships ChanBaek. Do I ship ChanBaek? Hell yes! Do you ship ChanBaek? Yes? Good! No? Also Good!!!
With that off my chest, I hope you're all well and doing what you love! ♥
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