Its been two days. 

No more laugh in the house. 

No more smile at the face. 

Less talk. 

Cries behind the door.

Silent tears hides by the pillows. 

If these are the prices that i have to pay, please get lost from my family's lives. 

You have not enter the family yet, but you have bring all these inside the family. 

I am lost.  The smiles that always there,  now no more.  

And dad...  This is the time that i need you most,  but you are not here.  

I am tired.  Its hard to be the eldest and harder to be the eldest daughter.