It breaks my heart to hear my mom cry,while she's telling me that grandma (her mom) passed away just awhile ago (the last time was just a rumour made by my cousin[that broke my heart still] but this time—today its real,my nanay is really gone...) 

Its rare for her to cry like that and it's heartbreaking. I thought for a while that after that misunderstanding my grandma was fine and that she's just a little sick. I was so happy and relieved that she was not really gone (that was last time) but today all my hopes are broken after my mom confirmed it. Nanay has gone. Its not a rumour anymore. She's really gone and I don't even know what to say...my feelings have been played by the rumour before ,I don't know anymore... 

I wish I could see her. I wish I could be there but that's just too impossible... <\\3 


But I guess its okay now...she no longer had to suffer...


I'll miss you nanay and I'm sorry I couldn't be there...I'm so sorry :'( 

I love you. 

You're with God now. 


Goodbye my Lola.