Hey there, as you can see in the title this blog is going to be a little dramatic.

Hello, I feel absolutely hurt at this moment. I’m actually under my blanket right now, holding in my sobs as I write this. I’m actually chubby or maybe fat in this country. I’m from the Philippines and most people here are really vocal about their opinions regarding your weight especially, friends and family. Like for example, when I coincidentally meet  someone I know we would say our hellos and then that person would just slipped in to say, “You’ve gotten fat.” Ok, I know I gained weight but then they would add, “You should really lose some weight.” Truthfully hearing that from my friends were endurable but hearing it from my family feels lile I’ve been stabbed a hundred times in the heart. 

I became fat when I went to college. I don’t really eat that much so, I’m not really sure why I’ve gotten fat in the first place. i guess, it was hard to balance physical appearance and studies at the same time. 

Just today my mom told me, “Aren’t you wondering why you’re still fat after all the diet you did?!”

Of course I’m wondering. Hearing that from my mom is really painful that I can’t help myself but cry as those words keeps on replaying inside my head. Yeah, I’ve been dieting. Drinking milk for breakfast, sweet potatoes for lunch, and just yogurt for dinner. Still, I look like the same fat girl. Well, it seems like I wasn’t starving myself enough to lose weight. Hahaha. I’m really trying my best to lose weight but, just by hearing those words everything crumbled down. I was still the same. No matter how less I ate my mom would still call me fat. Isn’t it amazing how words could slowly kill a person’s feelings? Torturing you with the words that left their mouths, making you feel that everything you did was useless . I hope you guys would be mindful for the words you say. 

P.S Does anyone know affordabe diets to lose weight?