A place where we grew up
in this room with little to no space in between us
you took my hands and played with my fingers
A warm feeling, even tho slightly cold due to winter

We talked about small things
after some time you left and I went back to my room in silence
it was already getting late
the stars poking through the dark sky with the moon going up

I dreamed of you and life
if only you could see how much you meant to me
you were so close, yet so far away from me
will I keep on living with what we had was nothing special?

Months passed
you told me all about your crushes while I still kept on one of my masks
I acted as if nothing was wrong, I just simply went with the flow
later on when I went on a short silent walk
I saw you kissing with a guy in our class and I quickly went away unnoticed

After some days it turns out the guy was a player
I saw him flirt and kiss other girls
but you weren't there to see it, you weren't even there at all

A few weeks later I saw you again
You were with another guy
this time it was your crush, you looked happy
And one of my masks sits still upon my face as I silently spend time alone

After many years, we all separated and went our own ways
after some time we met each other again
you introduced me to your new set of friends
after that we never saw each other again

Now it's already been a very long time
I no longer hold any sort of feelings for you
if there ever was any to begin with
you became a stranger to me, as I became a stranger to you

After what felt like ages, I stop having feelings
no matter how many times I tried to...
nothing ever felt right or real

I end up losing some of my emotions
I felt like I was losing myself, like I wasn't myself anymore

My other self hidden deep inside me
It probably took over me a long time ago
I feel nothing anymore, Blank is all there is

This room, this place, this space
will remain empty
no one will be here to save me because it's already too late

I kept hearing voices call out to me
deep inside me I could feel them coming for me
for it to come for me, and now it's already out

It's too late
too late for regrets, too late for apologizing, too late for anything
I continue living my life with my usual sets of masks

Right now the only thing that can protect me from humans
are the things that I've been living with my whole life
my other selfs, a set of masks.
masks that helps me through my daily life

My usual mask will always be me
And they will always be with me too.

"Mask"
by Min-yeon