021519 - Rest

Hey, fam <3

How have you all been doing? I've missed you guys! Since I've started writing in August of last year, I think this is the longest time that I don't have an SNS AU going on. It feels kind of strange but I really do have to force myself to rest for the meantime.

You all have been so sweet, saying that you would wait and all that... So I feel like I needed to explain why a rest is needed. But really, it's just an excuse to talk to you guys cause, you know... I miss you. Lol

I was telling my friend Tare a while ago that aside from being a fun activity, writing for me is also a discipline; it's something that I can do everyday. I try to write a few hundred words each day (yes, even when I don't post anything) just so I don't get rusty. Often I just write a bit of blurbs here and there, but there are days that I can write 3k words in one sitting. I always pray that each day can be like that... But... It's not... Hahaha. Anyway, the point is... After doing it day in and day out, it gets pretty draining after a while.

Creativity is a peculiar thing. I like to think of it like weather... Sometimes it's a good day, sometimes it pours, sometimes it's a drought. The only thing that I'm sure about is it's unpreditable. Unfortunately, I'm in that stage of the process where it sort of feels like a drought. I have loads of ideas in my head and have a general idea of where I want to story to go, but when I sit in front of my laptop, nothing seems to flow. And flow is really important to me. I'd rather not put anything out than put something out that I had to force myself to do. So I decided to just take a step back first.

Since writing is such an output-driven activity, I think I can gain a lot from doing the opposite during this time. I'm taking the time to read from writers that I admire (fanfiction and otherwise,) and learn from their different styles. Another thing that I am trying to do is to build my vocabulary and read up on grammar rules, just so I can be more comfortable with the language. Fun fact: I am not a native English speaker... It's my second language, so I definitely have to keep brushing up. There are so many things that I still have to learn. Half the battle is in knowing how to wield your weapon, I guess. A singer needs to know how to work a microphone... A painter needs to know how to mix paints... So I need to master the medium of my art too.

By the way, I know it seems obnoxious to claim fanfiction as "art," and a lot of people would probably disagree with me on this, but I really think it is. I've been moved by so many stories on here, and some have discussed really complex themes such as family, loyalty and love... If creative material moves you and makes you think... Then, it's art... Right? Hahaha I digress. That's for another blog entry, I suppose. 

Anywayyyy... That's why I'm taking this rest: A recharge of sorts.

My short-term goal is to finally close out some of my chaptered fics, so there's that. I've pretty much decided on how they're going to end. Don't worry, I'm not one of those torturous writers who make your heart ache in the end. I'm too much of a shipper to do that. Lol. 

As for SNS AUs, I'm going to take a break from that until maybe March or longer... I'll concentrate on the chaptered fics first.

For those of you who are wondering how I'm able to juggle all of the working titles... I don't really have an answer for you either. LOL!! I think of them as what they are... Alternate universes. The Taemin from Lonely is completely out of my mind as I write the Taemin from In Pursuit, for example. It's sort of like a brain switch... And there are times where I update the stories days apart from each other... So you can see how I could get a bit drained from it. But it's all my own fault. Don't feel sorry for me. I did this to myself. LOL

Feel free to drop me a line through messages here, or slide into my DMs on Twitter, or ask me anything on CuriousCat... I really do love hearing from all of you. If you've tried a hand at writing also, send me a link! I really would love to read from other authors. Maybe we could learn from each other! How exciting :)

I have to go make dinner now. 

Talk to you again soon, fam! <3

I LOVE YOU (Belated Valentine's Greetings to you all<3)

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shojinryori #1
I can *not* believe you’re not a native speaker of English! (<— really awkward sentence from someone who *is* a native speaker!)
Honestly, that’s just not true, surely. Wow. Have a good rest and recharge the batteries and I look forward to seeing what’s next!