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Hello, everyone.
This blog is just about me, you may ignore it because all I'm going to talk about is what I've been through.
This year will my 7th year on AFF. I start writing when I was in 5th or 6th grade. It started on the book and it was amazing because I shared it with my 2 fab friends which they also the greatest writer.
At first, I wrote due to my own creative imaginations and ideas towards my bias but then, as I experienced my puberty, I wrote my thoughts, my feelings, and anything else that I can't really tell anyone. Either it is about my own happiness, sadness, worried, morever, my long-time trauma.
Eventhough, in this world I have alot friends and some people feel comfortable around but I still feel lonely. There are some friends that I cherished till now but it just me that I couldn't really what is wrong with me.
I was suffered from emotional distressed before when I was a kid. I know I was still young, how did I know I was having emotional distressed? That is because I lived in a broken family. I literally saw my parents fight when I was 4 years old.
Till now, my emotion was only getting worse and worser. At some point, I don't even know myself anymore. I doubted if I even do things right. These days, I've been lacked in interests. I feel like I don't want to write anymore but at the same time, I still love it.
If you read till here, I'm sorry to waste your time. I just don't have anyone to talk to. I don't really closed with my family. Even if I tell my friends, they just respond to it like, 'so-so' and some of them sayin' - 'its ok, I feel you. Just be patient. Look at the bright side.' Well, guess what? I just tell them I agreed with them but no, it does not comforting me at all. It feels like I was just being ungrateful for what I get.
All I hope is that, I just want to get better and be happy. As for 2019, I looking forward the better me. That is the 20 years old me.
Thank you for reading.
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