I don't know what to anymore
Hey guys....I don't know what to do anymore, My story has drowned me in a wave of saddnes that I'm struggling to swim out of. My latest story that i'm working on is called Adopted by BTS, this story that I am currently working on contains the BTS members struggling with depression, abuse, suicidal thoughts, an drug addiction. I never intended the story to be this way, i inteded it to be romantic, a bit funny, and sweet, I wanted it be about Taehyung and jungkook adopting sweet, lonely, and innocent orphane child, who's despretly in need of a loing family, and they have to work around their busy schedules to love and take care her, but always find the time to, but instead my story turned into a story full of hurt, pain, saddness, and betrayal, Namjoon manipulates Jin to physicaly assult the other members of BTS (btw i know namjoon's not a bad person ,I love him, he's a wonderful and amazing leader and bts wouldn't be same without him), J-Hope struggles with a drug addiction, Jungkook suffers from a nearly fatal accident resulting in him becoming a completely different person, something in Jimin's past caused him to struggle in his reletionships, Yoongi has suffered a injury inflicted by Jin causing brain damage, and amitst all the chaos Taehyung just wants a happy family.
I don't even know how it came to be this way, I guess because...stories are like a flower...they start out as seed that you plant in the earth, you water it, care for it and nurture it as it grows...but over time as it grows, it becomes larger and stronger, it takes on it's own being and entity...and soon...you lose all control over it. I've had many sleepless nights, thinking and pondering on this story of mine, thinking that maybe I should just delete this cruel story that I have created, because even though it's not real...it still deeply hurts my heart to imagine the members of BTS struggling, being hurt so badly and having to deal with such imense pain, I feel like just abandoning the story...but to me, my stories are like my children, so if i abandon my story...it would be like abandoning a child. but...At the same time...I feel as if I've gone too far to turn back, I feel like I've struggled enough so I should just finish it and attempt to end it happly. Writing is my passion, it's what I love to do. I love to write......but I hate writing this story.
So please help me guys, I just don't kno what to do anymore. Should i continue writing this deprssing story that's filled with misery?? Or should I just put aside all my morals and what I know is right andI just end the sorrow, and delete it for good? Please comment your ideas, advice, and thoughts. Thanks guys! I really need your advice!~<3
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