Hello everyone, 

Wow...I haven't writen here in so long. The last time I updated was more than a year ago and that was just something that I was editing. But the last time I posted something new was almost 2 years ago. Why am I suddenly writing after so long? Well, at first I got busy with many changes in my life: I changed my study career, I started and ended relationships, I got my heart broken, I graduated, got a job, lost a job, started a new relationship, went through a natural disaster, etc. This two years have been with many ups and downs, many lessons (good and bad ones) and one of my downs was that I stopped writting. For some reason I didn't find the inspiration to continue writing. Instead I focused on reading more, exploring other things, trying to be independent and things like that. Well, almost 7 months ago I started a new job and I was great at first but a few weeks ago I noticed I was getting very tired and I couldn't do anything aside from get home, cook something for the next day, take a bath and go to sleep, and repeat all over again. When I could, I would just get home and watch Netflix and didn't want to do anything else. I would sometimes go out with family or my boyfriend but I didn't do anything more and when I was doing the same over and over, I would start getting bored. It was frustrating. 

At the beggining of december, I went to a Kpop event that one of my friends organized. As I was there, I started getting nostalgic, remembering all the good times I spent with my sister and friends I met thanks to Kpop and EXO. After that, it came back the stories I had written here. I would tell my boyfriend how much I missed writing them and he would tell me I should do it if I wanted it so much. This last week I have been reading stories I wrote, remembering how they were developed, with whom I was talking when the ideas came to me and how I have a few unfinished stories here. It made me feel so bad because I was so inspired when I first started and then I just left things unfinished. After going through some processes two years ago, I learned that leaving things unfinished it's not good for me nor for anyone around me. And it took me this two years to come back to my roots of writing fanfics to remember that. It also reminded me of someone who was my friend a few years back and inspired me to write a few of my first stories. We are not in contact anymore because of various reasons I won't discuss. But if she reads this, I just want her to know that I'm grateful for what she did back then, inpiring me to believe that my stories were good and that I could convey my feelings the way I did through writing. And the story we started together as well as another one I wrote for her and other friends has inspired me to want to write again and finish that which I haven't. I don't know when, don't know how long, I just know I want to finish many stories I left unfinished here and also start others that I have left drafted because of my lack of inspiration and motivation. 

Anyone who reads this, thanks for sticking to the end. I hope that if you once liked my stories, you give me words of encouragement so I won't lose this resolve and if you are new to them, I ask you the same so I won't fail again to myself and to you. 

And because HE will always be my inspiration for everything, I share a photo of Yixing who never gives up, works hard and tries harder.  

~Unicorngirl7