It hurts..

But idek where does it hurt.. My heart feels empty.. I always say to myself.. "Do I even deserve to be happy?" "Dont talk.. It will kills you.."

But guess what? I ed up.. I ed up many times.. I let my mouth talk whatever s it wants to talk.. I let my heart be happy.. Everytime I ed up, I feel a lot of people was hurt because of me.. I dissapoint them..

The feeling tht I have to bare since high school slowly eating me up.. Also, the burden tht I need to carry, the stress tht came up slowly eating me too.. How long can I survive? Am I strong enough to face this alone? I think I am.. Just.. Dont feel.. And Im good..