Inactive

I know I haven't been on here much or maybe I'm on here but I'm just glancing at my own stories for a bit. I haven't been active. I haven't updated a story in so long. I haven't read a story in so long... I haven't posted a blog in so long. I didn't even make a post for my 4 year anniversary this year. The thing is... I feel kind of disconnected from kpop in a way recently. Since the beginning of this year (yes I know that was actually almost a full year ago), I have kind of pulled back from kpop. I thought I must always love BTS but the thing is, I might have lost the intense excitement I had for them. Don't get me wrong, I will always love them, for sure! I just think that after they suddenly blew up around the world and more and more new fans join everyday... I find myself not wanting to be a part of that scene anymore. Maybe that doesn't make sense but I don't exactly want to take part in the infatuation and love that the newer fans think the have with them. I feel like the new fans kinda discredit the older fans and think they know all about BTS. I don't like the change in BTS's name. It's very hard to keep up with Rap Monster being RM (even though I know he changed to that a while ago). I honestly am not very fond of the new style of their songs. I love love love their older style. Maybe I'm just being an old granny that doesn't want change but I have just really had a hard time with it all. And honestly I am so so proud of my boys and of what they've been able to accomplish. But I think I've become too detached :(

Maybe one day I'll get back into it but for now I just listen to their older songs occasionally. 

I have been focused recently on enjoying my senior year. I've applied and been accepted to 2 colleges of my choice. I also have a girlfriend who I've put a lot of my attention into. (Maybe that's part of the reason that I have become less interested in BTS?) I had to quit my job because it just gave me too much stress. I am still trying to figure out what I am going to want to major in and do with the rest of my life. Gosh adulting is just so hard. 

Anyway, how are you guys doing?

I might return to writing soon but maybe not. I tend to make any story idea I have into a fanfiction because I don't know where else to post it other than here haha. Do you guys have any ideas as to what I can do and how to get into it (like job wise)?

 

 

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