Jk i'm not that desperate for a wifey / husband

I used to be obsess with the thought of having a boyfriend when I was younger. Don't get me wrong, I didn't want to do it with every single person I saw. I just wanted the whole holding hands, say I love you and all that sht. 

But over time, I soon realised I wasn't ready. Especially when I was dating a good friend of my family (around my age). He kissed me and... well, it was not nice. No, no, - no tongue but it made me feel sick, very sick. since it wasn't mutual ehem. lord I hated it

It took time for me to come to terms with it, that someone had kissed me and I didn't even want it or like it. I broke off with him and haven't contacted him since.  

I learned that I didn't like all the physical things that came with dating. I didn't like the idea of anything else than cuddling and holding hands - that was it. I'm more of a hopeless romantic who rather tells her feelings through words.

I still think I'd be nice if I had a girlfriend or boyfriend, just someone I could call up randomly and still have them willing to listen cuz I would do that vice versa. Like let's play 20 questions at midnight and fall asleep while learning about each other! ahhhhh no one does it with me but I'd do it, i really would.

Love may not come to be now, but who knows if it will come tomorrow or the next day. 

Do not fear of rejection, rather fear that you might miss out on something amazing just because you were afraid. (lol, that's what i always say when I'm nervous)