So I'm about to tell you a little personal story of mine, that I think everyone should hear, just because I think It's important. Even tho nobody gives a lmao, anyways its kinda long so idk. 

Okay then, so I had this male friend, let's call him Steven for privacy purposes. We were best friends, or so I liked to think. We trusted eachother, cried on eachothers shoulders, went out and had a lot of fun. We were friends for I don't know around 4 years if not more really. He was one of 2 friends, that didn't backstab me (I'm not so sure about it now tho but yeah) and we told each other everything. 

Then I was very busy with school, being in my last year of High school and things were just very hectic at that time. He had college and so we didnt hear from each other as much as I hoped we would. And I'll tell you why in a few lmao. And I usually always contacted him first either to hear how he's doing and to ask for help for maths, because he was very/is? very good at maths. And well as you might have gotten the hint, I'm at maths. He did help and everything. But then all of a sudden he just stopped replying. 

I messaged him multiple times, yet he never replied, ever. And it hurt and it frustrated me a lot. Then one day I called him. He answered. But what he said hurt a lot, he asked who it is and once I told him, he flat out went silent and hung up the phone. It pissed me off a lot, but more or less it hurt. 

And I was just thinking like what did I do wrong? Was I a ty friend? Am I just a horrible person in general? It just stressed me out and made me anxious a lot. 

But with the help of the other friend I came to the realization that it was a one sided friendship. it was always me to contact him and ask him to hang out, he never did that. 

But at the same time I thought that maybe if I contacted him more, talked to him more, then maybe it wouldn't have ended this way. Either way I'm cool with it now I guess. What I am trying to say is, please do not ignore a friend even if they hurt you or whatever, at least have the decency to tell them you don't wish to be friends with them. You don't need to explain in detail, just say I don't want to be friends anymore. 

Just a bit of a rant; I'm really sick of being the person that cares for others a lot and talks to them first, meanwhile they don't do that and then have the audacity to get angry at you, even if they have a bad day. All I ever did was try to understand them, help them, be supportive, plan and stress ahead about how I'm going to visit them, while they never tried to say; hey what if I came to you if you're in a financial mess. Meh I don't know, I'm just a bit upset I guess and hurt and idk, just needed to get it off my chest. 

If you read all of that, kudos to you for having that long attention span and thanks for reading, hope you took something away from this nonsensical post. 

Bye for now, I guess.