i've been having a very difficult second half of this year. there are times when i've thought of giving everything up.

but i didn't. and what is that i updated quite a lot of stories the first half of this year, and for the nth time in forever i don't have the ability to finish what i've started.

i'm sorry to everyone that have messaged me or posted on my wall and seen my online sign but never received a reply. i see it all and i see the comments, but somehow i can't bring myself to reply to any single message, even when i know it's as easy as saying thank you or whatever. it's almost impossible for me to come up with words and respond to people as if everything is fine when it's not--maybe that's why i'm unable to respond.

i'm sorry to anyone that's still waiting for my stories to be updated, because it's been months. i can't promise you guys anything, i don't want to promise you guys anything, because i can't even promise myself to do a single thing right lmao. but i want to. i want to believe that i'll overcome my ty life, get my together, and continue my stories like a normal human being.

maybe some of you think i'm silly, or i'm overreacting because--it's just a fanfic. well it's not just a fanfic to me--it's part of me, part of a person i like being--i love writing. maybe no one cares, but i'm posting this any way in case any one is wondering about what happened to my fics.

again, i'm sorry. for not replying your messages/continuing my stories for now.

if anyone comments, i'll try my best to reply to every single one.

i'm sorry.