Tanya kosmachova

NAME: Tatiana Kosmachova
AGE: 24
BIRTHPLACE: Yuzhno-Sakhalinsk, Sakhalin, Russia
ETHNICITY: Russian
FACECLAIM: Lyndsy Fonseca

DETAILS

APPEARANCE & LOOKS: She was nothing special in Russia - everyone has fair skin, everyone has light eyes, hers was nothing special.

In Korea, she was suddenly exotic. Her fair skin was special. Her light eyes were unique. Her curves, less than impressive for Russia's standards, suddenly stood out. She was in no way as gorgeous as the Korean girl next door or anything else those Xenophobic folk will tell you, but she is hot enough to be worthy of a conquest of the new white horse in town.


FASHION: When it comes to style, Tanya dresses to impress. It was the custom back in Russia, and habits die hard. Thankfully, it's the same in Korea (and she's not really surprised. There's not a place in the world where people don't indulge in the foolish game of pretend they enjoy so much), and Tanya just goes with the flow. So she puts on makeup before taking out the trash, and puts on her overly expensive high heels before going on a shift. She can't say she doesn't love looking pretty, but it's such a pain. Everything would've been so much more simple if people chose to stop playing this stupid game.

Personality

TRAITS: an idealistic realist, empathic, selfless, passive, cynical, intelligent, a coward playing a brave woman, playing pretend is just her way of life

PERSONALITY:

This world is nothing but a big playground for Tanya Kosmachova, even if she doesn't particularly like the game, or even think it's clever. People would've been so much happier if they'd abandon stupid prejudices and assumptions. The world is beautiful, why waste time on playing stupid games when you can enjoy it? But people are fools (her included), and they just can't do that. Tanya knows it as the ugly truth, and knows there is nothing she can do to change it. Life has made her cynical and gave her this peculiar view of life. It serves as a peculiar contrast to her empathic nature and idealistic mind, and creates a weird dissonance that wages wars in her mind left and right.

She wants to make the world better. She sees people suffering, and she wants to help. There was a reason she became a doctor, why she followed Slava and his almost suicidal Robin Hood complex. She is not blind to the horrors of the world, and wants to help as much as she can. Pain is ugly, and pain prevents you to see the beauty of life.

But sometimes she wonders if people are even worth saving if they keep playing stupid games, following stupid rules and laws set up by even dumber people? And then she wonders if she herself is worth saving, because, in reality, she does exactly that.

She justifies her actions, telling herself that she does it because she doesn't have a choice, but everyone has a choice, Tanya knows. She is very passive, never really taking action unless forced to, and it’s one of those traits she absolutely despises about herself. Inherently, she’s all talk and no action - with her strong ideals and views on life, with her empathy and desire to help people, with all of that she stands still and just observes.

A big part of her lack of action is fear, of course. She hates that about herself too. Consequences scare the out of her, as does pain and misfortune. She doesn’t realize she wants to prevent pain for people so much because she herself is absolutely terrified of it. She pretends to be brave, of course - because playing pretend is what she does best - and she helps people despite knowing that some of them can’t be helped. She simply remains in this one, big, dissonance, helping and hurting and helping and hurting, too passive to move in any direction without being pushed. And nobody pushes her, everyone is too busy with their own problems. So Tanya remains where she is, and endures. This world is nothing but a big playground, after all, and she’s good at playing hide and seek with her feelings. Playing pretend has always been her favorite game, no matter how much she hates it.

History

BACKGROUND:

Tanya was just a university student when she had her first kill. Medical help was lacking in Russia in general, and in their secluded island in particular, and it wasn't unusual for the med students to be forced to play pretend as actual doctors and treat patients (while the few doctors they did have took the time to take a break and pour a liter or two of vodka into their hungry stomachs). Tanya was good - playing pretend has always been her forte - and she didn't really mind. She was helping people, and that was good enough for her. 

The problem arose when Dima came. Terminally ill with a disease the doctors couldn't diagnose, he was dying, but not dying fast enough. He was suffering, in constant pain but could not afford any painkillers. All Tanya could do was watch as he slowly withered away, crying as his final moments of life were filled with unimaginable pain, asking to be killed and end the pain for good. But Tanya wasn't the only one watching. Slava was watching too. He was a janitor at the hospital, wanting to help but never being book-smart enough to actually study anything. He saw Tanya, and he knew what to do. He convinced her to steal midazolam from the vault. Midazolam induces sleep and slows down breathing, and an overdose could put a human to sleep for good. That was exactly what Tanya did. She watched him fall asleep, and he smiled at her. And Tanya knew she did the right thing.

After Dima, came Sergei. Rushed to the hospital from a local gang fight, with a knife wound that left his guts hanging from his belly. With a piss-drunk doctor on the shift unable to operate on him, by the time another doctor was rushed into the hospital, not much could be done. Sergei was dying, slowly and painfully. Slava almost didn't have to convince her this time.

This time, a nurse saw them do it.

Knowing that authorities will come after her with charges of murder the moment the nurse will report her (and she undoubtedly will, no matter how she might justify it), Tanya knew that she must flee the country. That very night she was on a plane to Japan, the closest country to the island, just south of it. Her plan was simple - She knew some Korean thanks to her Korean friends an colleagues back in Sakhalin, and while the final destination would be the United States (aka the land of promises, the American dream, and the country that wouldn't mind having someone who is an enemy to the Russian motherland), Korea would make a fine pitstop along the way. A place to stay for a week or two, and let the storm calm down for a bit.

Naturally, it didn't work out. A fresh graduate didn't have a lot to begin with, and after paying for two plane tickets, Tanya was left with just enough to rent a small room in a motel. To get enough money for a ticket to the states (and enough money to have a proper place to live), she had to get money. The shady motel had a shady restaurant looking for a waitress, and shady as it was, it didn't care that Tanya didn't have a visa. It was just for a week, two at the most. She would get enough money to get a ticket and maybe a month or two worth of rent. And then she would be off.

A year later, and Tanya was still stuck in that shady motel and that shady restaurant. Saving up money turned out to be an extremely difficult task with all of the expenses that came with life. Meanwhile, she got better at Korean, but that was the only good thing about the situation. She was essentially stuck in a foreign land with no visa and no way to get out. Every day felt as if she was digging a deeper grave for herself. She desperately wanted to practice medicine again, help people, help herself.

And that was when the letter arrived. At first Tanya thought that someone knew her secret, that someone was trying to blackmail her. It couldn't have been the Russian authorities - they probably didn't care about her enough to fund an actual pursue - but a random person who got to know what she did and wanted to cash in on that... that was very plausible. One part of her thought that it would be best to ignore the letter altogether. The other part knew that if it really was an attempt to blackmail, there could be worse things than a simple letter, and it would be best to deal with it while it was still fairly innocent. And that was how Tanya Kosmachova ended in the mansion.

The Details

OCCUPATION: Med school graduate, currently a waitress in a shady restaurant + on the run

SKILLS: 
- Medical knowledge + experience
- With medical knowledge also comes knowledge of anatomy, chemistry, biology, and basic physics
- Can drink alcohol like a ing boss
- Lying and pretending - is basically her life 3

HABITS: 

- She is a stressed drinker. Alcohol is a part of her culture to begin with, and while she isn't an alcoholic like some of her countrymen, there is no ignoring the importance of vodka in the society that she is from. She has developed a nasty habit of an urge to drink whenever she is stressed, a desperate attempt to calm herself. If she doesn't have a drink, she will get even more twitchy and stressed.

- Curses in Russian like there's no tomorrow, and will not admit that she just cursed if confronted about it. What do you mean she sounds angry? You're being racist, сука.

- Touches her own hair a lot - her mother used to do it when she was a baby, and it developed into a habit. Be it playing with it, an eternal struggle of the on/off ponytail, running a hand through it, etc...

* Sergei haunts her. He laughs in her face as blood oozes from his guts. He swears loudly, and calls her a stupid for getting caught, for trying to help him.

*Dima haunts her too, but all he does is smile. Sometimes it's soothing and calming. Sometimes it makes her even more afraid than Sergei.

LIKES: 
- Korean food - is delicious. Though she misses her mother's pelmeni and borscht, she is more than happy with kimchi.

- Medicine - it truly is her calling. She loved everything about it, it fascinated her and she is devastated that she hasn't practiced it for over a year.

- Dressing fashionably - she absolutely loves dressing up, but even though the old clothes she brought from Russia were fashionable once, they are long overdue. She can't afford to buy new clothes, so she tries to get the best out of it.

- Russia - despite knowing all of its shortcomings, despite knowing that so many things are wrong with her homeland, there is a large part of her that still loves her country. Call it brainwashing, call it patriotism. She doesn't quite know herself, it's as illogical as .

DISLIKES: (4 only)
- Soju - is piss. Who would want to drink that water when you have vodka?

- She absolutely despises the hot and humid summers of Korea. Sakhalin was always nice and cool, but here she sweats and it's ing horrible.

- Pain - is probably the thing she is most scared of. Be it physical or emotional. She is absolutely terrified of it.

- Russia - she loves her country. But . How can it get so low that she had to cover up for doctors as a med student? How can it get so low that she had no choice but to kill people because that was the only way to stop their suffering.

important people

SLAVA: She and Slava are... complicated. He stayed behind in Sakhalin, and no one knows that he was a part of Tanya's crime. He does his best to keep in touch with Tanya as he feels immensely guilty that she is the only one on the run, and while she knows that it's not his fault, a part of her is jealous of him to the point of wanting him to be in as much as she currently is. At the same time she knows, logically, that it's stupid and wishes that she wouldn't feel like that.

The Wish

WISH: Tanya wishes that no one would've caught her killing the patients. She is idealistic, but she doesn't believe that there could've been a way for her to not kill them, and so she only wishes for it to remain hidden, so that she could continue practicing medicine and helping the patients at the hospital.

ending

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PASSWORD: Sorry I didn't use Gyuri in the end ;A;