2017 had been a game-changing year to say the least as I had finally secured a temporary job elsewhere but in a different town which made travelling and commuting really hard as I had took the job to support myself and the family even though the pay wasn't good and even started hating it because the job was a little boring but needed something to gain experience and leave when I needed the chance. But in July 2017, due to my performance and punctuality, I wasn't going ahead with the permanent job but I was glad because it was a blessing in disguise because my long travelling was affecting my attendance (but I'm mostly punctual) and the role itself didn't suit my capabilities or degree of skills. So I wasn't sad that I left but it made me more motivated to find a good job in my local area and two weeks later, I found a found new job which is local and 10 minute drive by my house but with a good pay too!

I can completely say I have found a suitable work place that has a resonable travelling distance to work, I can work flexible hours and they have halal friendly food in the restaurant. I finally found the zen needed for work and this is the only workplace that doesn't do any politics. As working with Whitbread as a Reservations Centre Agent, it may look simple but we do a lot of work going through many bookings, gaining revenue and maintaining customer service policies. Every month I always come 2nd or 1st with the highest performance or statistics and due to this, I was given a permanent role in November 2017 and pay was increased too.

As a full-time employee, I also received perks like a discount card for Premier Inn hotels and Costa coffee shops and also a Rewards card that I can spend online from the money made from the incentives connected to the bookings I make. At the beginning of 2018, I've finally overcome my fear and learned to drive indepedently to work since it's near my house and also moved into a rented house which is closeby to my mother's house and also work too. From then on the rest is history and now feeling confident again personally and professionally.

After looking back a year ago, I would never have imagined where I would be and in the words of Elton John, "I'm still standing better than I ever did." At the same time I've also gotten over my depression and finally learning through life of adulthood and dealing with things in a different life. I may have written a long story in two parts but I like to be candid about my life and address things so I can inspire young girls and women who think they feel worthless but you don't have to be, as long as you don't stop trying and fight your struggles every day, there will be a new tomorrow.