I lost 21 pounds in six weeks.

Possible trigger warning - weight discussion.

So, for the past three years, I have been a disgusting 131 pounds. I am 5"1. Now, I don't supposedly "look" fat or obese or overweight. I have never had anyone say that to me, including doctors. I have even had people say I look slim at that weight (lel).

But I felt absolutely disgusting. I felt obese. I hated the way I looked.

If you read my stories, you know by now that I have severe arthritis. I am in my mid-30's, it is a progressive disease that gets worse as you get older. I was diagnosed with it when I was 19.

But it's not just severe arthritis. I also have ITBS in both knees, tendonitis in both arms, RSI in both arms and ankylosing spondylitis in my spine. In short, I'm ed up.

So, no, it's not as easy as "just exercising."

I am also a Mountain Dew addict, I drink it every day at work (when I'm working, I am in between jobs). It helps a lot with my anxiety, I know that's hard for people to understand but it does. I have wicked bad social and generalized anxiety and I have become very used to drinking it before any kind of family events or parties or things like that. And it gets me through my work day. I will say I have always worked high volume, busy jobs that have always involved overtime and in the eleven years I have worked since graduating from college, I have never taking my lunch break once. So, yeah. I work ing hard and Dew helps me get through the day.

So, the weight loss is probably strictly due to the fact that I am not drinking Mountain Dew every day. And it will go right back on once I get a job.

But, . I am so ing happy right now. As someone who has had an ED and was obsessed with my weight, having a thigh gap, perfect collarbones, visible ribs, abs, all of that . The depths I sank to at 131 pounds was not pretty. Maybe it was "normal" for other people but not for me.

So, to be back down to 110 pounds for the first time in over three years just makes me so happy.

I took a pic, more for myself to chronicle this than anything else. Forgive the ty lighting.

I know I don't look anywhere near good but it's the lowest I've been since ing 2015 so I'm allowed to be happy.

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YoruNoTenshi
#1
I wanna say congrats! It's important to be happy with yourself. Losing weight is not easy, and every milestone should be celebrated.

And let me just say, the female body needs a higher percentage of fat in order to be healthy. Therefore, a thigh gap, visible ribs, flat stomach, etc are actually what we are taught to look for in malnourished patients XD so never make that your goal.

You look great! You should be proud!
iceberg_99
#2
I so know how it feels to loose weight. I was an obese few years before. I am not in perfect shape though, I still am thin as compared to my previous self. So, now that I am loosing weight, I don't want to go back to my obese self ever again, even it means I have to give up on my lifestyle which I was used to. So don't worry, your situation is understandable. As long as you don't develop any mental or physical issues through this, everything's fine. Just wanna say don't overdo it and TAKE CARE!
suchentao
#3
I also lost a large amount of weight. Down 13 lbs now. I know how it feels to just view yourself so lowly.
I also understand that mountain dew is what keeps you going. Caffeine is my engine so I can't imagine cutting that down completely like how you did with MD.
Luckily there were alternatives to my 3-in-1 coffee drinks that didn't affect the KETO diet I'm on.

You SHOULD feel happy. Be proud that it's your own discipline that led you to your current weight. It's our job now to keep losing weight or maintain, depending on our goals.

^-^ Always think of health! You don't need to exercise. Hopefully you get nutrients from your meals too!!