Ah jeez, it’s really satisfying to tick off that “Completed” button as you post the last chapter. As an author my motivation for any plotline just fluctuates a heck ton, and that’s why you might see me uploading a new story and deleting it off because I can’t bring myself to write anything that contributes to a continued story. I’m actually so surprised that 6 out of my 8 chaptered-stories are completed (๑･̑◡･̑๑”) I literally can’t complete anything else in life //shot

If you don’t know, “The Traits of a Lover” has its final epilogue (and if you haven’t read it, what are you doing here?). So yeah, ticking it off as complete is probably like, I don’t know, sending my child into school or something. It’s kinda sad it’s ending, but like... there’s no more burden of thinking about it anymore :-D

TTOAL is a completely refreshing experience for me. Most of my stories have been “severe extremes”, where their fate is just sort of impending and unstoppable doom (and... like, really ing scary. Jag-eun, anyone?) I thought I’d have a go writing something domestic.

“The Traits of a Lover”, I guess, is a new baekyuu “era” where the fic deal with an already established relationship where everything’s kind of just gone to . I wanted to provide a perspective where everyone clearly knows the arguments of both sides, but the argument between the characters is just so stupid it’s not even worth fighting for. As an author who writes about the extremes of human emotion, I guess I wanted to communicate that sometimes conflicts are so stupid that they could’ve been dealt with when it rises, but because of someone’s stubborness, ego, pride or whatnot, it escalates into something that nobody bargains for. 

TTOAL is also pretty dear to me not only because it’s my second story to have the Speeshul Asianfanfics Featured Golden Star™️ (yay!), but also because it took the longest to finish, so it’s been pretty much weaving in and out of my life. I remember writing a few of the chapters when I recently moved to Denmark, on a carpet with my laptop on my legs with like, no furniture or light in the house, and having to post each update through my phone. I’ve gone through a lot of ed up events whilst writing this story, so it’s like, my baby I guess. It’s also the longest story running so far (84k? Holy ), and that’s just not really something I thought I’d do. So yeah, this story is a big freaking achievement.

Even though writing is not my main career goal and it’s more of a free-time hobby, I’m so freaking glad that I can count it as one of the biggest achievements in life. If I take off the “fanfiction” label off of it, I basically just wrote a full-length book. Like, a big yeah, dude.

My journey on this site has been pretty awesome. Surprisingly not much trouble, too. I’ve seen a lot of authors with haters coming after them and the only thing I’m iffy about my time in here was the ads, which was infrequent. I don’t know if it’s a charm, but I’m so grateful that my “career” here has been pretty smooth. Not only that, I’ve also gained some sort of reputation (not fully recognised, but I’m working on it) for being one of the sadist authors out there (´⊙ω⊙`) I felt pretty flustered that some of my fics were suggested Google searches! For sure, though, I am aiming for the angst levels of the biggest fanfic classics out there. Not quite there yet, but I shall be. You’ll see it.

Ahh, anyways. This has been one heck of a ride. School and impending adulthood is looming over me but I’m sure this isn’t my last story. I am so glad I never gave up on this hobby, despite considering it a few times. Writing is fun, but bringing heartbreak and angst to others (via fanfiction, I highly recommend that you don’t do it any other way) is even more fun. I’m already connecting the dots and brewing up a recipe for another story. So look forward to another angsty fic, by yours truly!

Cheers guys!!! You’re all the best ＼＼\\٩( 'ω' )و //／／

- baekyuu