It's been a while since I've last posted a blog here. I've been kinda busy with requirements in school, since the school year's gonna end soon.

Anyway, I just wanted to let some of my feelings out today for a bit.

Now, it's my birthday today, and I thought my day would go fine. But no, it's like the universe has something against me this day.

I woke up just like usual. I was greeted by my family in person, and by my friends through messenger. Then, I got ready to go to church with my family. But I found out that it was my time of the month, and that already soured my mood. Then, the cramps started, but it wasn't that severe yet. However, when it neared the end of the mass, it already hurt a lot that I couldn't stand anymore and I even felt dizzy, so I decided to sit down until the mass ended.

I told my parents I wanted to rest at home for even just a bit, since we planned to go out to the mall to celebrate my birthday. When I got back home, I immediately went to bed, wanting to rest. I got a hot compress for myself and drank some hot water quickly. But then, I started to vomit on the floor, before I quickly ran to the sink so I wouldn't make a mess. I felt so weak, but I drank the water more slowly now, so that I wouldn't puke again. I ate some food, before I rested in my bed again.

My father came back home to fetch us, so I had to get up and go out again. I mean, I was the celebrant and it would be weird if I wasn't there in the gathering, right? Well, let's just say that it only hurt a little since I was able to rest for a bit. However, I had no appetite, so I just ate a little bit. Then, after a while, it started hurting again. The only thought in my head was that I wanted to go home and sleep again, so I wouldn't have to bear with the pain. My mother said that I could go home together with my ate, so we went home ahead of the others. I was glad to go home and sleep, since I felt better once I woke up a few hours later. My family and friends cheered me up, so my mood got better too.

All in all, this day was supposed to be happy, but I felt kind of ashamed and guilty that I made it bad for my family. I felt like an inconvenience, making them worry about me. But, I'm still happy that they keep up with me. I'm also glad for my friends. I guess that not all that happened today was bad, but I think that I focused too much on the bad side, that I wasn't able to see the good side. That there are people who care about me and want to make sure that I'm okay, so I guess that's all I want to say.

P.S. Also, I want to say "Happy 19th birthday to me!" :)