Written by me
I want to scream.
I want to shout.
I want to hit.
I want to destroy.
So many wants,
Never going to gets.
I want a time and place I can do this,
Without people questioning me.
I am always tired.
If I could,
And if they let me,
I will fall asleep in school at break and lunch.
I could and would,
If I had people I could trust,
Around.
I don't like people touching me.
I don't trust people enough,
To let them.
They will either tickle me,
Which hurts me,
Or they will hit me.
Noone can tell,
When I don't want to be touched.
I can't trust.
No matter who it is,
Or how long I've known them,
It's like I can't trust.
I used to trust so many people,
Now it's like that trait has disappeared completely.
The cameras are everywhere.
I don't bring them up,
Because I don't know how.
I need someone to ask about them,
Or I won't be able to speak out,
And get help.
I self-harm.
I have no problem admitting it.
I don't cut though.
When we have take-out,
I rip off certain parts of the box,
And scratch.
Only I shka has seen me do it.
She looked so sad,
I stopped for a week.
I need to scream.
I need to shout.
I need to hit.
I need to destroy.
So many needs,
Never going to be quenched.
I need a time and place I can do this,
Without people questioning me.
I NEED HELP!!!!
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