Storytime!

So, I'm not sure if I told you guys this, but I have this friend who has a girlfriend whose kind of... a smartass girl? I was going to say but she isn't. She just makes me feel stupid, hence why I said smartass. So anyways! If you guys already didn't suspect I was pretty gay, you'll definitely nod and say "Yep, she's pretty gay." The thing that's wrong with that is that I'm straight... maybe.

So to the story, this happened in math class. I usually sit in the back of the room, because that's where I can charge my baby laptop. She sits in front of me and usually always turns around and talk to me. But today was weird. I was speaking with my friend Ruby when she turned around. She kind of watching, not saying a word. It wasn't until I was getting creeped out that I said something. "You okay?"

The next thing kind of ed me up. She asked, "Do you like Micheal?" Micheal is my friend whose her boyfriend. I was shook my dude. If I had feelings for Micheal, I wouldn't even bother trying to avoid him whenever we see each other in the hallways. Okay, look I have this thing with those guys. They are really ing offensive, but I only stay around (rarely) because if I don't, I'll be really lonely at lunch and I don't want to repeat freshmen and sophomore year.

Going back to the story, I asked why and she explained. She said it was because we were close (that's a ing lie) and that I tend to be nicer to him and ask him things than the rest of them. Okay, look here. Micheal may be 18, but he has looks of a 27-year-old, bread and all, so of course, I need to be nice to him! He could break me in two with ease! Also, I ask him those girl questions because he's mature about it and honest! Okay, I admit I have no filter but that's because... I actually don't have an excuse for that. It's funny because when they talk about my s I get super embarrassed but when I do, I would pull down my shirt (not revealing my s) and say "I don't have chest hair yet."

I really was surprised when she asked me that, so I shook my head. I kind of smirked and said, "Honestly, I would date you instead."

WEWO WEWO WEWO WEWO WHAT THE ALERT

I ing froze and dropped my smirk. We stared at each other for a bit and she asked, "I thought you were straight..." I was trying to be serious but all of a sudden I laughed. I LAUGHED WHEN SHE SAID THAT. I don't think I was ever so red. I wanted to curl up into a ball and die because I was so embarrassed. When I was calm, I said this. "I'm starting to rethink that."

IT WAS A JOKE BUT THE LOOK ON HER FACE WAS HORRIFIED. I mean I said before I was curious to date a girl. She knew this and didn't' react the way she did that moment! Honestly, I was a bit hurt. Well, I guess she told Micheal because at lunch today, Micheal asked: "Hey ****, I thought you were straight."

Man, was I pissed. I trusted her to keep it between us and Ruby who witnessed it all. So I said, "I thought so too, Micheal. I don't know what the I am, honestly." I can tell he was not pleased with that answer because he gave a long sigh.

SO... Yeah. This was an embarrassing moment in my life. I kind of want to cry a bit because my friends are asking everyone on the group chat if it's true. (They forgot I am in the group chat because I don't respond) Guys... I think I might have to finish the year eating lunch in the stalls again.

Hope this made you laugh. It made me laugh thinking about it once I got home. Wanted to share that with you guys before I actually cry about it.

But for real though, in all seriousness, I am questioning my uality. So when people ask about my uality, I say "Actually I might be bi, but I don't know. Bi-curious is what it's called." I mean I really did mean it when I told that to both Micheal and his girlfriend. The only reason why I didn't, was because those s kind of judged me when I opened up about it last time I claimed I was bi-curious. They said "it's either your bi or not, choose" I mean I'm not sure!! Maybe I am bi, or maybe I am straight but find girls attractive in a non-homoual manner? I'm not sure! I don't know! I'm just on the journey finding out my uality. SO.... Yeah.