Its been over 3 months since the day that shook the entirety of SHINee World to its very core.

Honestly, I'm still not okay ... and I know I never will be. It will never stop hurting.

I miss him everyday.

But, sadly, the world can't stop. for anything. for anyone.

And so ... even if it hurts. even if its hard.

we still need to get back up ... and move forward. 

SHINee is doing their very best to do just that ... so I want to do the same. for them. for Jonghyun oppa.

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Despite all that though ... when it comes to the stories that I write, it's quite a different story. 

I am writing this post to announce that in my stories (published and unpublished) where SHINee are characters, Kim Jonghyun will remain alive and well.

Writing is one of the things that give me comfort from the despairs of the real world. It's a special place where I can set myself free and feel all the things I want. And I want Jonghyun oppa alive and well.

If this decision is upsetting to you, I'm sorry. But I don't want to steer my stories in a direction where I have to have him gone. That is just too sad and it would strip me of the comfort and solace I get when writing my stories. I hope you can understand that much.

Jonghyun oppa, I miss you everyday and it still hurts to face a reality where you are no longer with us. I will keep you alive in my memory and in my heart ... starting with one of the closest things to it, my stories.