For those of you who have the displeasure of seeing me in your feed, you've probably noticed a lot of posts about girls. This is also kind of the reason I can't seem to write anything coherent (and this INCLUDES school essays). This has been causing me a lot of distress and has been at the forefront of my mind, making it nearly impossible to concentrate in class. 

Your author has a massive frickin' crush on a girl. 

Now, the fact that it's a girl shouldn't surprise any of you, seeing as I literally write about girls and girls only and I've never been shy about my uality (AKA I'm obviously a lesbian). But what IS surprising is HOW HARD I'VE FALLEN FOR THIS GIRL. This is next level pain here, guys. She's the most adorable girl I have ever had the pleasure of meeting, and she's bi, and she's really sweet and it's so hard not to grab her face and kiss her. She even plays flute!!! She's just a year under me, so she has the majority of the teachers I had last year, and she has mentioned a few times that she wants to hang out so I can help her out with school work. 

But, like I said, I've fallen HARD. 

As in, I've gone soft. 

Very. Soft. 

I cannot even WRITE 300 WORDS without thinking about her and becoming sidetracked because it's just so nice to think about her and her cute face and her adorable smile (she looks a little bit like a chipmunk when she smiles and it's so cute it HURTS) and how soft her hair is and how comfy she is to hug and DO YOU SEE HOW SOFT I'VE GOTTEN??? HELP?????????

Basically, yeah, your author's heart is being attacked over here. And not being able to update is frustrating for me, too! I want to update and I want to finish the stories on here that I've started because I have a lot more ideas that I want to write! But not only am I struggling to update with all these EMOTIONS, my school work is also lagging behind. I can't focus on ANYTHING in class, because I'm too busy planning out what I'm going to talk to her about in my head. 

Save me.