As soon as i look up,

I got this feelings,

I hate what im seeing, That damn reflection,

That eyes, that ears, that face, that smile,

Like i cant believe,

Those are mine, That face.

Not single of it i like,

Not even one i like,

But it remind me to my parents,

Cuz i resemble them so much,

So why i cant be like them?

Be strong, Not give up in the middle way,

What i got? Laying down is my speciality.

Even at this age, I still dont know,

Living with no dream, Im leaving behind,

Just move forward without proper motive,

Break it up, Let it go,

Im just a freeloader in life.

Cuz everyday im living in my own fantasy,

Create memories with my own imagine,

While the reality is more hurting.

Everday im thinking,

Thinking till no end,

I guess its no end,

Hey you!

I want to be that, wear that, to feel beauty,

Boast my confident, Even that i cant do it.

Hey brother! 

Do you know how it feel to be trapped in this loop?

Keep repeating the same thing,

Stand strong in day, Falling apart at night,

The scar not healing anymore, 

I want to run away from this stupid side of me,

Be far from this place,

My room feels not safe anymore. 

Suffocating, Im drowning,

Im fine equals to save me,

Im screaming inside, Not anymore. 

This morning, I feel fine,

As i woke up with the empty feeling,

Try not to acting like a loser. 

Try not  to acting like a loser,

Everything is easy,

I got nothing to do, 

Burdening others is what i do,

I will never. 

Cuz im a freeloader in life.