hi red velvet cupcakes with cream cheese frosting

 

Missed the foody name-calling? :D

I don't have much to say, apart from the fact that I logged into aff a few weeks ago (well, maybe a week ago) for the first time in, like, a year. You once again surprised me with your kindness and support for my stories and I was very moved by it. 

As some of you may know from my previous blog post (you probably don't remember it - I wouldn't be surprised; I can't remember it, it was so long ago), I was struggling with depression for a while. Still am. Haven't written a good sentence in a very long time, haven't been able to relax and go with the flow enough to be able to write the way I used to. I'm doing better, but I'm not sure if I'll ever be back here for good - that's what I wanted to tell you. 

I have an unfinished story, and I've had a few new ones planned for you before I got bad, but I can't promise you to ever publish them here. I just wanted to be honest with you. If I do start writing again - and I really, really hope I do - it might be too late, I guess. I feel like I've detached myself a little from this site and lost a lot when I started logging on here, contact with you all being the biggest loss. 

So yeah. Just wanted to come here and call you a cheesy food name again - for old times' sake. Hopefully, I'll be able to call you that again soon.

Let me know how you're all doing. I'd love to know.

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BeatBoxer
#1
it's 2020 and i'm still hoping another update from you. I hope you're doing great, I just wanna drop by and express how much we miss one of the greatest aff authors in aff T_T
Deepbluetree #2
Hey! We all miss you but don't stress. Take your time! Your health is more important and you should focus on that. Depression can disappear after awhile and though it may not seem like it while it is clogging your mind, you can actually get better! So I hope ypu can have some patience and live in hope of better days! We all love your writing but it should be fun for you as well! Lots of love~~~
lovinkpop1004
#3
Definitely missed the food names! Take your time with everything and if you do start writing again, we will absolutely be here and if you don’t that’s still ok. You always come first for yourself. So much has happened since the last time, I’ve started uni and wow time does fly by!! I hope you get where you want to be and can talk to us anytime. Till next time I guess? Take care!!
JaeLii-Sarang
#4
hello dear, not sure if you remember me, this is so random but I was just watching a trailer for RWW on YouTube and it brought back sooo many memories, so I decided to log in this site after a long time and surprisingly I saw this update from you, I’m sorry you are going through a hard time I hope things get better for you ;; I haven’t read fanfics in a very long time so I feel pretty detached from this site too but I still remember how your updates would really brighten up my days c: I’m glad you decided to leave us a message and I’m really hoping you feel better soon 💓 if you ever to decide to start writing again I will be here to support you but please don’t stress about it, take your time and most importantly take care of yourself ! ^^ p.s. the cheesy food calling names are my fave heheh
starmyst
#5
hey! I missed seeing you around and I'm sending good vibes to you in the meantime with everything you may be doing. Tbh I can relate to the whole dissociating kind of feeling. I'm sort of struggling with writing myself that there are some days, I just try to force myself to even if my motivation isnt there. Like I want to write but???? Anyways. Im happy youve been doing better. ♡
lackadaisies
#6
writing is supposed to be a leisure activity or hobby, so take it easy. glad to hear you're well and i hope you're doing great.
Ai_Hasu
#7
heeyyyyyyyyyy <3 <3 <3
it's so good to hear from you again! I hope your uni and life in general are okay?
hope you feel better soon, depression is a pain in the . but there will be better times, for sure. you will make it, you're strong enough! and know that you are loved and appreciated (and missed on here) <3 but no worries, no stress.
take care of yourself and everything will follow after that, your personal health and well-being is the most important!
thanks for sending us a message and letting us know how you've been doing :)
sending you lots of love and hugs!
BananasForJae
#8
long time no talk! how are you doing now??
Life just recently got crazy for me and being sick does not help anything lol. I just found out I might be graduating a semester early so that kinda has me in a panic because that came out of nowhere and I’m scared.
Reading the food nickname instantly brought a smile to my face and made me think of back in the day when I looked forward to your updates hahaha
Take care ❤️
_dancingyixing
#9
It's nice to hear from you! Always take care of yourself first before worrying about us :D prioritize your health dear. Whether you'll be back here or not, we'll always welcome and understand your final decision. Really did miss how you call us with food names hahaha thank you for doing well! you're doing great okay? *claps for you*
vividimole
#10
It's nice to hear that you are better! I get a glimpse of you on your instagram once in a while.

Take care and be safe ❤
kaitlynalyne #11
<3
hannie05 #12
hope you feel better soooonnn...
gonna miss u again tho.
but..eh...

hugs and kisses 4 u,
your no.1 fan ♡_♡
bubblegum-
#13
awwww hello~ I miss you so much ♡ and yes, I do miss being called as desserts :(

I hope you're doing well in life, despite your depression. It's tough, I have a friend that has me on call whenever she's having anxiety attacks and depression, and I'm always there to get her. No pressure on writing though; continue writing when you find it relaxing and not forced.

I'm busy with uni as always. It's been more demandingly hellish lately. But I'm trying to cope well with stress relievers (lmao I binge-watch a lot on Youtube).

Always take care ♡
jaellokayi
#14
I've missed you and all those food nicknames so muuuuuch omg i'm so happy you appear on here again even just for a while. I hope you can be happy in the future and please take care! Loves you a lot ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡