GREETINGS

    I've written this in a few of my story notes:  I have Rapid Cycling Bipolar II.  If you haven't read those particular areas, you probably don't know this about me.  Anywho, if you're reading this now, then you do.  :)  To put it lightly, it can on the worst days.  On good days though, I'm inspired and super happy (also, not always a good thing- the super happy part).  Sometimes my energy drives me nuts. 

    But with me it's either too much or none at all.  Which would you choose?  That's a really hard choice.  Anywho-

      -I'm back.  Well, in the light.  I've flitted in and out of all my media places, but have been unable to write any thing.  At times, it physically pains me to connect with people - with words beyond those of my stories.

    MENTAL ILLNESS

      Writing has literally saved my life growing up.  I can fuel all of those horrible feelings and thoughts in to something constructive.  If you've notice, for a while, I've subtly been easing mental illness in to my stories.  The Luhan Twin One (What If I Said...?) I'm full out writing two Bipolar characters who head with each other, while also having to deal with the world around them - not know how to deal with them.  I want to show what's it's really like for us.

    I can't speak for the specifics of other individual illnesses, but for mine, I know the ins and outs, the ups and the downs, the really ups and really downs.  I've talked to a few people on here that also suffer with similar issues.  I want any one to feel free to talk to me about anything.  If you simply need to connect with someone, I'm here.  You are not alone.

    AN ODE TO KIM JONGHYUN

    We all know what happened to Jonghyun.  Well, we know what we've read and saw on videos, but being there:  I'm sure there was so much more.  My heart goes out to all of SHINee - the managers - his family - everyone.  For a while, I couldn't even talk about it or watch or read anything having to do with it.  My disorder made it that much worse for me.  It hurt so bad.  But I'm back.

    (I only write this part --> because I'd seen other writers mentioning this --> I will not write Jonghyun out of my stories and I will continue the ones I have with him.  It's my way of immortalizing him.  Gone, but never forgotten.  He was a sweetheart, multitalented, and loved by all who knew him personally and his fans.  His memory will live on by me through the only way I can:  My stories.

    THE FUTURE OF MY BLOG

    I have been wracking my brain for years now.  What about?  I've wanted to write about mental illness, beautiful things, inspirational things, my life (the good and bad), my writing (and journey towards being a self published author), and teaching things:  how to deal with life when you have a mental illness or don't and how to write, and basically any thing to do with writing.  I hesitated, because I saw all these blog with a niche (a straight up blueprint of what they wanted to show the world and it stayed in the same area - usually writing.  I read a ton of writing blogs).

    I thought that I had to much I wanted to do and figured I'd need to make multiple blogs for it to be acceptable.  Then I slowed my self down and thought:  Why?  I can write one blog and just be me.  If you know any thing about me, you know what I like by now:  Books, movies, my dog, art, music, youtube, fanfics, taking pictures... etc.,... seriously, I'm all over the place.  But you know me.  So, you know what to expect.

    I am now going to just write what I want.  Including getting back to writing those how-to-write posts that everyone loved.  I'm going to structure every things, so you know what to expect when, so yeah.  I figured it out.  I'll try not to disappear for long periods of time.  I can't promise anything, because:  Bipolar Disorder.  But I'll try, and at least you now know that.  ^^

Until Next Post, which will be a how-to on writing:  I wish you well on what ever your working on or even just going through that Netflix list.  I'm so jealous ;)

Demitria_Teague (Author)

P.S.  I also want to start writing about my journey through the writing to publishing process.  :D  More on that later.