Dear Readers,

My names isn’t just Bekki Spector. It’s Bekki. And I’m not just a fanfic writer. I am a mom of a 5 year old daughter that I sometimes leave with the tv so that I can write and respond to comments. My husband works in a prison and I only see him 2 days a week. So not only do I miss him, sometimes I feel like a single mothers. Also, I am sick. Very sick somedays. I go to doctors nearly every month. I receive medicine similar to chemotherapy to keep me alive. I hurt everyday. I feel tired and sick everyday. I also suffer from depression. And I still take care of my daughter (alone some days) and I still find time to write fanfics. I love, love, love to write. I’ve been doing it since I was a young kid. It helps me forget about my pain. I have lost people I love to suicide this year. I barely see my husband. I HURT. I write to help me deal with my life. I find time to read every comment, even if I don’t have time to respond to all of them. I see them and acknowledge them. But again, this is for fun. I understand that not everyone will like my writing style and that’s totally ok! But please, leave negative comments to yourself. Also, if someone makes a comment you don’t like on one of my pages, please don’t complain to me. I do not babysit the comments or play referee. I don’t have the time or energy. I’m sorry if you don’t like that, but that’s how it’s going to be. If I continue to receive negative comments, or complains about other comments, or if you expect me to monitor every single comment, my first step will be to turn off all comments, my next step will be to make all my stories invite only. I’m close to taking a long break from writing altogether because I simply don’t deserve to have to stress over something that’s supposed to be fun. I hope you all understand. Please keep it positive or keep it to yourself, and I say that without trying to be rude even though it sounds that way. I’m just… tired and sad and sick and so lonely somedays. Please, please understand that some days, this site is my happiness and even a small negative comment HURTS me badly, even if it was meant to be constructive. I’m sensitive and fragile lately and pretending to smile takes a lot of my energy. And those smiles are reserved for my daughter first. Please enjoy my fics because I do enjoy writing them. Thank you for all the love and support!