it was the third days after Jonghyun's death... R.I.P i was crying a lot and having a huge shock!!! 

but that's not the point why i write this... of course i was really shock when i knew it.

i was extremely shocked after i heard about my friend's death~ and it just three days after his death... we're as classmates are having dinner together without any intention. but one of us...suddenly speak up right before eating. god... only god know how did i felt at that time. we have so many memory shared together...

when i heard that, when i was tried to eat my food, my hands were shaking holding the spoon...my tears flowing down furiously...doesn't stop... i think it wet my food... 

i went back to my hostel...and cried a lot on my bed... 

but... i forgot that i've promised with my friends to go to a biology study group that night... i was wondering whether i have to go or not but i remember her last wish is for us to keep studying and get the best result. that words lingering in my mind. i collect my courage and get up to get myself ready and go to class with swollen eyes. 

sadly, i can't go to her funeral because there is no transport and our college can't give us permission due to our packed schedule. it is almost impossible to postpone the class because of our one year programme. we only got a year study and after that we go for our degree... 

right now i'm okay~

i'm sure that she is in a better place right now. so i'll make sure that i will make her last wish came true..

Good bye...Anna...my friend... :)