Depression (Help me.)
I was in my vacation when my lil sis said you're dead. I didn't believe her at first, but when I saw it with my own eyes, I almost died because of heart attack.
I'm not a really big fan of SHINee, but is that really matters?
You helped me fight my depression with your songs. Now that you're gone, I found it difficult to breathe. The person I thought was happy was broken and suffering inside, just like me right now.
My family is like, "You're overacting, that is just a Kpop star." I don't wanna hear that anymore. I'm hurt.
Depression is not a choice. Who wants to be depressed anyways? You people keep saying that "We all have problems like that", "I understand you but you're wrong". COULD YOU PLEASE UNDERSTAND ME?! I DIDN'T WANT THIS! I KEEP THINKING POSITIVE BUT WHEN I DO, NEGATIVE THOUGHTS ALSO STARTS POPPING OUT OF MY MIND. YOU ALL BLAME MY PERSONALITY, WHY?! CAN'T I BE ME?! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT DID I DO WRONG! YOU KNOW THAT FEELING WHEN IT'S REALLY REALLY OBVIOUS BUT NO ONE CARES? LIKE WHAT THE HECK. THERE'S NO ONE COMFORTING ME WHEN I NEED COMFORT. WHEN I'M CRYING, YOU ALL JUST STARE. WHY?! I'M NOT REALLY GOOD AT PRETENDING AND HIDING MY TRUE FEELINGS... I'm getting tired. Should I just follow Jjong? After I red his suicide note... I just..
Someone help me please. Suicidal thoughts are slowly swallowing my entire life.
"Without you I'm not happy, but I hope you're happy."
#RestInPeaceKimJongHyun
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