Healing
For the last three days I wasn’t in a good place.
I was feeling heartbroken although I didn’t think I would. If a person so happy was hurting so much inside, what should I do? I’m also hurting inside, I thought, why should I keep on suffering?
Although there are people around me which are important to me, maybe I should be selfish and stop this dull pain, this utter boredom and feeling of failure.
I decided to talk to my best friend instead. I’m glad I was still able to do that. Although it didn’t help with the pain.
I had to go to a charity concert at church that evening and, trust me, I wasn’t happy. I’m anything but a believer and generally a sceptical person. However, it was beautiful. The singing was beautiful and the place was heartwarming.
I woke up feeling content in my heart like I haven’t felt in a long time. I read the sad news and the farewell letters and felt calm, accepting it as a sad reality.
Right now I’m in a good place and I haven’t been in such a good place for a long time.
I found help in the most unexpected place and form and all I had to do was to force myself a little bit to go. I guess... I'm just really grateful right now.
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