Healing

For the last three days I wasn’t in a good place. 

I was feeling heartbroken although I didn’t think I would. If a person so happy was hurting so much inside, what should I do? I’m also hurting inside, I thought, why should I keep on suffering?

Although there are people around me which are important to me, maybe I should be selfish and stop this dull pain, this utter boredom and feeling of failure.

I decided to talk to my best friend instead. I’m glad I was still able to do that. Although it didn’t help with the pain.

I had to go to a charity concert at church that evening and, trust me, I wasn’t happy. I’m anything but a believer and generally a sceptical person. However, it was beautiful. The singing was beautiful and the place was heartwarming. 

I woke up feeling content in my heart like I haven’t felt in a long time. I read the sad news and the farewell letters and felt calm, accepting it as a sad reality.

Right now I’m in a good place and I haven’t been in such a good place for a long time.

I found help in the most unexpected place and form and all I had to do was to force myself a little bit to go. I guess... I'm just really grateful right now.

 

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kissmyspine #1
I love you. ❤️
Vestablue
#2
Hello :) I'm really glad that you unexpectantly found comfort and is feeling better. I know this is random, but feel free to inbox me if you wanna get things off your chest. I know i'm a nobody, but sometimes it's easier to talk with someone you don't know.