It's been a while since I last posted a blog on Asianfanfics.com. On 18th of December, the whole world was shocked with the death of our beloved SHINee member, Kim Jonghyun. What can I say about this.. He was my first bias when I first knew SHINee which was in the year 2011. I thought he was really great in Ring Ding Dong's music video which made me fall in love with him well, in just a month I guess? Although I moved on from him, and liked Minho instead in SHINee, I still supported him, till' today. Before SUJU overtook SHINee as my favourite KPOP boyband, I was a hardcore Shawol. And eventhough SUJU is still my number one KPOP band, I still support SHINee by listening to their songs. I have to say, my favourite SHINee's songs will always be Replay. I don't know why either. I still adore him though until today and I still can't believe that he's gone. When I watched his funeral earlier this afternoon, I couldn't help but cry as I saw the grieving and the sad look on his friends' faces, especially the SHINee members, SUJU members, SNSD members, and Yeri, who was still in deep shocked I guess. 

These past few days after his death, I kept on reading his news on Twitter. Truth to be told, I was quite upset with some K-netizens comments as they kept blaming Siwon and Sungmin who came to his funeral. Guys, they were and still are his friends. They came to the funeral to pay their last respects to Jonghyun. I kept on wondering, what if they didn't come to his funeral? I think you disrespectful netizens would blame them and said various hurtful comments such as 'Ah, they are such a b*tch for not paying respects to Jonghyun.' 'Who do they think they are? A God? Can't they please come and see their hoobae for the last time?' I've read this comments and I have to say it hurts me a lot. Luckily, there are a lot of Elfs supporting them. And what made me sighed in relief was they were willing to forgive Kangin for his mistakes. In my opinion, Kangin deserves a second chance. Even God forgives us for our biggest mistakes right? So, as an Elf, we should forgive him for what he had done. Everyone makes mistakes, and they deserve to be punished but not for a long time. Sometimes, we need to forgive them to show our supports to them. Please don't judge them by their mistakes. The same thing goes to Onew, Jonghyun's bandmate. To be honest, I've never blamed Onew. Although what he did was shameful, but I didn't blame him. We never know what truly happened on that day. Only they know. Maybe he made a big mistake, but we shouldn't have posted malicious comments on social media.I really hope Shawols will be able to forgive him for what he did. He looked so lost earlier and he did his job as a leader by comforting Jonghyun's mother and Key during Jonghyun's funeral. 

However, even after Jonghyun's death, there were a lot of fans blaming some idols for not coming to his funeral. And this happened to Jessica, Yesung and the JYJ members. I don't know if I should say this but it's up to them whether they want to come or not. We don't know their situation. We don't know what they are going through. As for Jessica, maybe she wanted to come, but she was afraid of the media and maybe she didn't want to encounter her past SM colleagues. As for Yesung, he was there. He came there with Heechul and Kyuhyun. He was wearing a cap so we couldn't see his face clearly and he probably did that because he didn't want to show his swollen face to the media. As for JYJ, I think they have the same issue as Jessica. But I heard Jaejoong came. What I want to say here is, stop storming these idols Insta, Weibo or Twitter account. Please don't post comments such as 'Where are you? Please show your respect to Jonghyun.' I don't think that's the right thing to do. Stop pushing them. Give them space. They just lost a friend, a colleague. We are just his fans, we only watch him on tv while they were his friends. They went throught ups and downs together. So please try to understand their feelings. Then, the weird thing is, Idk why some fans drag G-dragon and Top into this matter. Some fans are blaming them especially Top for his scandal a few months ago. I don't think he deserves it though. I really think everyone should start to forgive him.

We have to know that idols are human too. At first, I blamed SM for his death. I thought SM was the reason why he became depress. But I was wrong. He did that because everyone was judging him. No matter what he did, everyone would judge him for what he did. Well, that's the disadvantage of becoming an idol. You have to endure every hate comments about you and probably do nothing about it as you cannot do anything to prevent it. Truthfully, after his death, I just hope that some fans or anti-fans to please stop judging their idols. Don't post any hateful comments on their twitter, Insta or anywhere in social media. This is the reason why some idols are falling into depression. They maybe look happy in front of the camera but we don't know what they feel when the camera is not around. Depression is not a joke. Anxiety is not a joke. So please, respect your idols. Respect all the idols. If you don't like them, please don't post any malicious comments about them on their social media accounts. Stop blaming them if they make mistakes. Support them whenever you can. They maybe here, alive, and laughing with us now but we never know when they are going to leave us in total darkness. So stop. Please appreciate them for their hard works. We don't want the same thing to happen to our favourite idols do we? 

For the last time, I hope that Jonghyun will find his own happiness in his new world. Rest in peace Jonghyun, we will miss you. You've worked hard! You did well enough to make everyone in this world to remember you forever. Thank you for bringing happiness into my world and for bringing so much joy to the world. You will be remembered by everyone, and I'll always pray that you will be happy up there with God by your side. Thank you for everything Jonghyun. We will always love you. <3