I haven't blogged in forever. 

Writing this with a heavy heart, I feel like I can't breathe for some reason. I feel trapped. I feel sad. My head and heart hurts. I can't stop crying. 

Jonghyun's suicide has been affecting me in ways I did not imagine. I've been playing his album non-stop since his death was confirmed. Every time I go on twitter and look at my timeline, my eyes start to water and tears just fall unknowingly. 

Rest in Peace Kim Jonghyun.