9 years as a shawol and never once I thought any of this would happen.. I still cant believe it.. I still wont believe it.. I still love him I want to see him with SHINee next year when they are finally together as 5 again ㅠㅠㅠㅠ and Onew's first public appereance will be on his dongsaeng funeral.. IT HURTS just few days ago I read about SHINee will be together again in their world tour next year but Jonghyun just couldnt endure his pain anymore so here I am trying so hard to let him go in peace.. 

YOU HAVE WORKED HARD KIM JONGHYUN YOU DID WELL!! YOU ALWAYS DID REALLY WELL!! Im sorry that I couldnt do anything and help you in any way Im sorry that I always ask for your happiness without realizing that its all for myself and not for yourself.

IM SO SORRY WE ARE SO SORRY KIM JONGHYUN 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔

I will always love you and you will always in my heart and be missed. You are such an inspiration to all your listeners and fans. You may look happy on stage when u see shawols but in the end of the day you are just Kim Jonghyun a human who always feel lonely. Its feel so unreal and real at the same time I dont know what to feel anymore... 

I love my 5HINee.. My SHINee is 5.