I don't know where to start.

I've been crying for as long as I remembered since I've discovered the news.
My heart aches so much, my hands trembles, I just couldn't stop myself from crying.
Even right now, as I am typing throught out the senteces I am crying.

I remembered having a dreamt of him, two days ago.
I remembered I was walking inside of a sort-of-a-museum which display random playhouse of kpop idols (idk what it's called).
Right there and right then, I saw a big, pink playhouse with SHINee photos and mannequins, so I decided to went inside.
But I was not expecting to met a real member there! He was sitting by the windows, on a pink stool, he was smiling sweetly.
I broke down, I cried as I was in shock but he came running to me, asking me "Are you okay? Why are you crying?"

I swear, his voice sounds the sweetest to me. He wiped my tears away, he comforted me.
He said I shouldn't cried, it will only ruined my face.
God, he was an angel. His smile was very angelic.
I woke up directly after that, and mannn! I did cried on my sleep.

I was a big fan of SHINee.
I grew up listening to them, I knew them since their Stand By Me era.
I was into Jinki and Minho at that time, but after a year or two, I changed my bias to Jonghyun.

I remembered I'd sticked a picture of them on my school desk and whenever I felt down, I talked to the picture.
I remembered I fought with my classmates and I cried when they insulted them.
I remembered how much joy and fun I had everytime I watched Hello Baby.
I remembered how hyped he was when Yoogeun kissed him and he asked the camera whether they had captured it or not.
I remembered how silly he was in Star Golden Bell Challenge.
I remembered how funny yet hurtful it was seeing him cry while hugging each of s.

I still couldn't believe his good bye on his instalive was actually his final good bye.

His laughters, his smiles, his silliness had bring more joy, more happiness to me.

Thank you for all these years I've known you.
You had bring a whole big impact in someone's life.
You're the reason for someone who are still moving and fighting in this world.
You're a jewel, you're a saver in someone's life.

You've fought hard.
You've did well.
You've did amazingly great in your life.
You're an angel.

Sleep well, love.
May you finally find happiness wherever you are right now.
The world will never forgets you.
We'll see each other again in your next life, okay?

Farewell, baby dino.
You'll be missed.

Rest in peace now, Jonghyun.

I love you.