i honestly love my parents so much. i started crying while packing up breakfast and mum sent me and dad off on a drive and we started talking about what could be done to help idols and just normal everyday people who live in societies that laugh upon depression and gay, because they just dont understand what it is. I woke up to my dad telling me about Jonghyun, i ate breakfast with my mum trying to talk about shinee with me, i went on a drive with dad to talk about what could be done, and now im writing up articles to spread on twitter and instagram. If any of you have found petitions to go against the korean government, or petitions to start an awareness campaign, please send me the link. 

Jonghyun. Im proud of him for doing what he needed to stop. Im dissapointed that he didn't open up about it, i mean, he probably thought about everyone close to him and contemplated, should I do this? but still. Thinking about the end is easier than actually reaching the end. I'm crying rn, thinking about the rest on shinee. how they were supposed to get together and be groomsmen but instead the last time they'll all be together as shinee will be carrying Jonghyuns casket. Is anyone else feeling dissapointed in themselves? That they didnt start stanning shinee properly? I am. I still want to stan them but, now it'll be tears. 

Right now, everywhere we go, will be sad and depressing. So we should try and direct all that sadness, anger and confusion in one huge force, towards trying to right this. trying to right the misconception Korea has of depression, lgbtq+ and all the small things that seem less evident. 500 hundred people in front of the government, and the government will slowly bribe them all off. If the ENTIRE fanbase, ALL OF THE MILLIONS that we are get together, the goverment can't brobe us all of, they cant ignore us.

I dont know about you, but im not letting Jonghyuns death just die out. Whether he wanted to just disappear, or hide, or forget, he's still going to be the driving force of making sure that the rest of korea dont think that killing themselves will heal everything.

I'm gonna say, dont question why he did it. We'll never know. When people suicide, they do it to end their pains, not their life. They migh want to keep living, but they might have tried every other thing that THEY could do to stop the pain. and then suicide would have been their last resort. Dont try and figure out why he killed himself, theres a lot of factors that have to be taken in and it would seem insensitive to try and put a reason on it. Even if we're just trying to console ourselves, its just not right. We dont know.

We should all do something. anything. I'm being terribly biased and insensitive myself here when i say this but I dont want Yoongi to see this and think "if he can end all his pain so easily, why cant I?". I dont want anyone else to die because when they went to talk to someone they were laughed upon, or ignored, or not taken seriously.

For those who have //skills//, like web making, coding, and things we can do to stretch this past just our fandoms, please pass this post on. 

For Jonghyun.