I just want to have a reunion all of a sudden with old Role playing friends.

My name is Jessica and I used to admin like a dozen roleplays. 

Back in Summer-Fall of 2011, I first started roleplaying. I joined " Hello " Roleplay. At first, I was extremely confused with all this roleplaying shenanigans and thought it was weird but along the way I realized it wasn't weird and was pretty fun. I got to be someone who I couldn't exactly be at school or in the real world.

Starting in the beginning of 2012 I decided to make my own roleplay. I was like-- if someone else can do it then I can as well. 

So, I decided and made "I AM" Roleplay. With my close friend Kevin who I made co-admin with me we ran the roleplay. Along the way, I met plenty of amazing people such as Nessi & Sarah who I later on recruited for admin as well and many other;s who I deeply appologize and can't remember. ;;

Being admin wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. 

It actually put a lot more stress on me- more than I thought or maybe the younger me just couldn't deal with all the pressure considering I made the roleplays. 

Therefore, I ended up joining other roleplays because going into my roleplay wasn't as fun bc of the stress it brought upon me.

A little after, I created 2-3 more roleplay and ended up being admins to about 4-5 roleplays all at once. Trust me, I was insane. How was I, one person going to handle even more pressure now that I have to manage my time and know what's going on with all these rps at once? 

Along with being in a roleplay there was a ton of drama. Drama with characters, drama out of character, It was insane.

I still remember there was a time where I had to end "I AM" RP and switch it over to another RP name and renew this whole RP just because of one person who kept stalking me and causing a ruckus in my roleplay I didn't want to leave my whole RP just because of one person. No matter how strict I was in not letting this person in-- they still managed to apply as a character over and over in the roleplay and throw their stalking bull at me and others. 

I was young and dumb. Obviously I couldn't reported them considering we all use roleplay characters. But as that changed happened that person disappeared and I was extremely releived along with others.

After a minimum of almost a year and a half, I decided to do the unthinkable and merged 4-5 of my roleplays all together. Many were probably frustrated with me on this. I honestly just wanted to try something that no roleplays had done before and be able to manage everyone at once. Of course I could have just made sacrifices but I didn't want to because I created these roleplays. I didn't want any of them to lose their meaning and foundation. There were many times where I just wanted to give up and do something different but I couldn't leave.

I became so close to so many lovely and daring people that leaving was the last thing on my mind. And whenever I did want to leave. Many people held me back from leaving, the guilt of leaving something amazing behind and leaving all the memories was the last on my mind. 

But the day came at the end of Fall of 2013. I finally decided to leave roleplaying and I never once turned back.

I'd like to thank all my roleplaying friends, all the lessons I've learned, all the mistakes I've made and all the fake relationship I was in. Lol. 

Many people may not believe it but roleplaying changed my life. It taught me to be stronger, better and courageous.

Trust me; I used to be this nice, innocent, bubbly and outgoing person in roleplay, and in person I was the same those years, people took advantage of my kindness like crazy. But now I'm just a IDGAF attitude kind of person who never lets get out of hand. That's one of the only reason I never came back to roleplaying. Let's just say I grew up and in a good way.

And I'm hoping all my roleplaying friends are doing swell! I'm 23 and married now, I started when I was in 11th grade of highschool which would've made me about 16, young, naive and purely innocent. (GAWD, rp ruined my innocence with .LOL. luv it.)

So, if anyone's still roleplays please don't give your admins a hard time. Some of them are stressing more than they seem. Appreciate your admins, your friends and your roleplay. ♥

Below, I only gave what roleplay screenshots I could find saved on my files.

After I left, I transferred all roleplays to other co-admins and now they're all history and lovely memories.