Idk... it just...family prob. Not ours but my mum's. I'm not going to write deeper but enough so that I can keep calm. 

For years...and I almost forgot their names. And...some that I did forgot their names. My youngest sis, they even doesn't know that she's exist. And...we have a wedding ceremony for my cousin... we came to their house to give a hand for the ceremony. Me? Of course i helped them too.

But their expression...somehow you can see they're glad but insincere. I can read people face and expression. And... I can read people eyes and even their smallest gesture. I didn't take major in psychology, infact i took science. But my feelings and readings always correct. Maybe I should find course related to psychology for my degree... but that's not the point. 

I have bad eyesight. I have to wear spectacles. But today I decided not to wear it because I want to avoid their eyes. I just want to have good thought. But... it just hard... I can still read them. 

And my mum...she's just acting like usual even it's already years... i don't know whether she pretend did not hear or keep her eyes blind or what but I could feel she is hurt in the inside. Or...she just too nice did not notice that. 

I can't smile... 

Apart from this... I'm sick. And my disease becomes more worse when I stress... my hair is thinner. 

Why I can read people??? It happened many times and almost all of the time.  Sometimes I think it's a give. Sometimes it's a curse~ like fairytale right?

Reality is much complicated than drama.

*sighed*