So seriously I meant to come write a blog post to scream about how 50 episodes of SJ returns is so great and I love SJ so much, but I opened twitter today and got attacked with the news.

And I'm so tired.

Kangin. Kim Youngwoon. I defended you for YEARS from the DUI. I said you are not like this. You're a gentle person with a warm heart, just a little reckless and rough around the edges. That it's okay, you'll learn in army. When you came back with y Free Single, I spoke positively about you to everyone around me, encouraged people to look at you in a new light. I was so happy that you are back with the members, that you're smiling brightly, that you're being active as MCs and DJs.

But I ran out of words when it's your second DUI. I cannot bring myself to defend you again, but all I can do is to stay supportive.

I want to believe that you're still a great man. That you're just... stressed. That perhaps pulling out of the industry for the time being would help you to get rehab and actual help. That you'll get your together again.

The past few months you start to reappear again, I see your photos with other celebrities and I was so happy. That you're out there, meeting people, smiling. Yesung even posted a group photo with you and captioned it Super Junior. When I saw that post I cried on the train you ing idiot, I was so happy that even after all this the group I love for years still love each other and forgive each other's mistakes.

But this? Assult? I'm out of words. There is no way I can defend you.

My only possible explanation is that the lack of work & income is stressful for you. That you are legit alcoholic and have real issues with anger management. But none of these can be valid reasons for assault. You have no right to ask an innocent to suffer just because you're suffering. That's not how it works, Youngwoon.

I want to be supportive, Youngwoon, I really do. I want to tell you that your spot is still there with SJ, I want to tell you that I'd welcome you back with open arms once the knets forget about the DUI. I really do, but I can't, because it's beyond my ability as a clear-headed 20 year old.

To be honest, for all you've committed over the years, you should rightfully have been sentenced to some sort of a jail sentence. Like Sechskies' Kang Sunghoon did (and srsly KSH's case didn't even harm anyone, his family was pretty influential too, but ksh still went to jail). But you got away with nothing. That's already unfair. 

Go get checked. Diagnose your issue. Share the documents and announce that you're out of this industry to fix this mess. Stop drinking, and , don't you dare think about drugs. Get actual treatment, rehab, whatever that helps fix yourself. Be open. SPEAK UP. TAKE RESPONSIBILITY. APOLOGISE. To your family, to your members, to the girl you harmed, to us, who waited for you only to have this.

ing I love you, but this is the last straw, Kim Youngwoon.