I honestly didn't think I'd even be back at AFF. I bid goodbye to my colleagues from the graphic shop last July. They were the only ones who knew about my plan of leaving AFF. I didn't inform any of my subscribers. I just stopped logging in the site. It was a hard thing for me to do considering that this site had been my outlet for my fangirl feels. 

I had been struggling with depression and anxiety for so long. There was even a time before my hiatus that I deleted all the chapters I've written in advance for the stories because I was feeling frustrated and upset with my life. I tried to keep things in control but eversince I had been staying in the hospital for my grandmother (she's okay now) my anxiety got worse. I had a panic attack in the wee hours of the morning and I was thankful that my aunt was with me in the hospital to calm me down. After that my mother made me go home and rest because staying in the hospital reminds me of a lot of depressing things I've encountered before.

I'm a bit better now. I still can't sleep right away or peacefully but atleast my problems and worries don't fill my mind as soon as I close my eyes. I'm trying to rewrite what I've deleted and hopefully I could give you good updates soon. I know that this is my personal life and I'm not really obliged to tell what happens outside AFF but this is the least that I could do for those who had been leaving me comments to update and that they're enjoying my stories. Honestly, even just a simple 'thanks for updating' lightens up my mood because I feel like I also made somebody smile with my stories.

To whoever is still reading this, thank you because even if I'm just a random stranger you know from the internet you still took time to read about my reason. God bless!