So tired. Of life in general. Of people who make it tiring for me to live. To exist peacefully. 

Tired of people  playing the victim card while victimizing me. Tired of people conveniently using my emotions, my time, my efforts till they're satisfied/bored and suddenly disappearing for ages. Of them showing up out of nowhere, pretending as if nothing happened. As if I'm making a huge fuss out of it. Why is it so difficult for them to say goodbye and leave instead of maintaining the forced relationship just for the sake of it, causing pain to themselves as well as me. 

Tired of my family  being the most unsupportive people in my life. Tired of their practically condtional love, disowning and treating me like a mistake when I commit mistakes and fail to make them happy. When I fail academically, when I fail to reach up to their  unrealistic expectations, when I try to make myself happy before them. And again, them playing the victim card. Why is it so hard for them to put their ego aside, and  ponder upon their mistakes as well? Why is it so hard to apologize as well as accept apology and make a fresh start? 

Why is it so unacceptable to shun hypocrisy, to embrace a realistic and simple approach to things, letting go of toxicity and living life in happiness? Why is it a taboo to let go of unhappiness and stick to things which you really want to do?  

Why does the society force me to believe that unless I'm pretty, I don't deserve happiness, love and respect? That I need a slim body and a beautiful face in order to find true love? 

But f**k the world. I'm gonna live life my way, for myself. I've learnt that there's really nobody who loves yourself unconditionally except you. People leave as soon as you stop putting them first, even if you're the last on their priorities, or not even one. 

I want to live for myself without indulging in selfishness and narcissism. I want to become independent and stop being treated like a burden. I wanna find happiness. Work for humanity to satisfy my soul. 

Take care of yourselves because nobody else will. <3