Everyone must have thought of being a light to somebody's life. Like, if they're sad, you want to make them happy or if they can't see their worth, you're going to write an essay surpassing the number of words needeed on your school paper just to let them realize how they're important in this world. But I have a different perspective on that. Not everyone who tells you they aren't worth something want you to tell them otherwise. Others want to know that they're not alone--that you also face the same difficulties in life. 

Tonight, I just thought of talking to that remaining person in my family who I thought will understand me. But she didn't. It's like the tables have been ce again and I'm in the wrong just like the usual... I already did everything she suggested me to do: explain, ask for forgiveness (even though I can't see how am I that much wrong), and have myself adjust (as if I haven't been adjusting to their own rules my whole life). I have been given the same pieces of advice when I was younger. And that just made me think I am no one, I am always wrong, why do I even try.

No, I don't like their advice. I've already done all of them but to no avail and telling me to do it over and over again just makes me think that they will never understand me. It just made me think I am always wrong and thus, I have never been such a good person all my life. I just want them to tell me that they understand. 

Adjusting for other people is a two-way system. I cannot just adjust to your terms without you adjusting to mine. You must also adjust to mine. If we are always going to follow your rules, how am I supposed to live my life, then? That way, I am distancing myself from who I truly am. You mold me to the kind of person you want me to be but not to the kind of person who I wanted to become. It's like I've been trapped in a cage even when I am no animal. 

My only point here is that, not everyone wants your piece of advice. Don't tell them what to do. Just listen and tell them words that say you understand them. Tell us we're not alone. Tell us you have been through this and that you're now past that and that you have become the kind of person you have always wanted to be since then. Listen and understand. Not listen and tell them to say sorry to others for being yourself and for just comlying to others' terms. This world isn't a one-way system. It has more systems that you could ever imagine that make it go round.